I choose Quit!

[Air Force ADDICT]

Look at all this QUIT wisdom! Keep on keepin' on Mosha.

[CavMan83]

Mosha,

The answer to why you didn't back down is simple. It's called integrity. You posted roll, made a promise to yourself and your quit brothers/sisters that you weren't going to use. Then you honored that promise. You have every right to be proud; there's been more than one douche on these pages who has lied to his brothers/sisters (some even dipping WHILE posting roll). I'm extremely proud of you and for you and what you're doing. Quit with you today, and EVERY DAMN DAY after that, One at a time.

[TLOC81]

Awesome job Mosha. It's the best feeling in the world to stand up to the bitch and win. Once you've done it once it gives you the confidence to never back down to her again. One thing I would say is don't worry about tomorrow. For some, the fog lasts 3 days, some still get it in the 100's. Just worry about today and use the tools you have available to beat the bitch back the next time she whispers in your ear.

[quark]

Doesn't make any sense. I dont even know you guys/girls, haven't talked to anyone, and am pretty sure nobody would have noticed if I didn't post roll ever again.

EVERYONE at KTC knows when someone caves, Mosha.

I quit with you today and celebrate your strength to do the right thing under stress.

[mosha]

This might sound like a bullshit story. It's not. It's the truth. To be honest, I'm a little surprised myself.

Last night was nearly a disaster. On my way out of town on a family vacation I stopped to get gas. had to run-inside for coffee and the wife wanted some gum.

Standing in line I thought - 'shit, i should just buy a can of cope. i've got a 2 hour drive, then a 4 hour flight tomorrow, there's going to be a ton of stressers getting the kids into the hotel, then into the airport, then onto the plane. then into the rental house, etc, etc, etc'

While I was standing in line to pay I thought of 1,000 reasons why I should buy a can of chew. I made up my mind that I was going to do it... 3 days... down the drain. I thought 'oh, i'll just start over once we get there'

Then i thought about posting roll.

Doesn't make any sense. I dont even know you guys/girls, haven't talked to anyone, and am pretty sure nobody would have noticed if I didn't post roll ever again. But to me I could only think of promising that I wasn't going to use nicotine today. And by buying a can of dip, I would have been breaking that promise even if it was just to myself.

So I didn't buy it. Didn't buy anything. I walked out of the gas station (probably ran a little actually) and sent the wife back in to pickup the coffee and gum. Probably should have sent her in to begin with.

Yesterday I came face to face with the devil and I didn't back down.

Anyway - it's day 4 now. The fog is still here, but it's pretty minimal I wonder if it'll be gone tomorrow? My smell seems to be coming back already *and* I slept a little better last night!

I'm feeling pretty strong and happy. I'm on my way (with my family) from Chicago to LA for the month of June and i'm looking forward to not being around my home turf, not being in my regular routine, and not being around all my regular triggers. I know there will be challenges and I know the battle rages on, but every day i'm feeling better about the decision to quit and every day I think it's going to get a little easier.

Until next time,
mosha

[Old Dog New Tricks]

Rock on! You doing it. Everyone around here says ODAAT... One Day at a Time. But for the first few days, man, it's OCAAT, One Crave at a Time. Feel the weight of your promise and be strong. Use every tool you can, breathe deep and count backwards, drink water, exercise, scream into a damn brown bag in the closet, do whatever you have to do, but DO NOT CAVE!!!

You have my digits bud. Text me if you wander too close to the ledge.

Don't let us down. Samurai are one for all and all for one. You need to be strong.

C u at roll call tomorrow morning, unless I hear from you sooner.

[Idaho Spuds]

Thanks for all the support everyone!

Today has been a roller coaster day. Woke up and for the first 5 seconds I was awake forgot that I quit yesterday . Then the crushing realization hit me like a ton of bricks that I would not be putting a dip in my mouth to start my morning.

Then, I took a shower and surprisingly felt really great. Took the kids to a doctor's appt, then to school. Even stopped at a gas station to get a cup of coffee. No problem. When I got to my shop (where I work from) it has pretty much sucked. Every time I try to start a task, i'm patting my back pocket for my can. I'm also wondering around aimlessly opening drawers and looking underneath things. Only to catch myself after a few minutes.

Luckily, I have Jakes. So I grab a giant wad of that and throw it in. Not exactly the same thing, but I really think it's helping me with the muscle memory part of the habit. I've chewed a bunch of seeds and drank about 2 gallons of water today too.

The fog has settled over my brain. I feel simultaneously exhausted, confused, and pathetic. I Have so much work to do, but the thought of doing anything is so heavy that I'm just sitting in my chair feeling sorry for myself. I should go run or ride or work, but the fog wont let me get out of my chair right now.

-Edward

#winning
Great work, in your quit, keep it up and stay vigilant in your quit.

[mosha]

Thanks for all the support everyone!

Today has been a roller coaster day. Woke up and for the first 5 seconds I was awake forgot that I quit yesterday . Then the crushing realization hit me like a ton of bricks that I would not be putting a dip in my mouth to start my morning.

Then, I took a shower and surprisingly felt really great. Took the kids to a doctor's appt, then to school. Even stopped at a gas station to get a cup of coffee. No problem. When I got to my shop (where I work from) it has pretty much sucked. Every time I try to start a task, i'm patting my back pocket for my can. I'm also wondering around aimlessly opening drawers and looking underneath things. Only to catch myself after a few minutes.

Luckily, I have Jakes. So I grab a giant wad of that and throw it in. Not exactly the same thing, but I really think it's helping me with the muscle memory part of the habit. I've chewed a bunch of seeds and drank about 2 gallons of water today too.

The fog has settled over my brain. I feel simultaneously exhausted, confused, and pathetic. I Have so much work to do, but the thought of doing anything is so heavy that I'm just sitting in my chair feeling sorry for myself. I should go run or ride or work, but the fog wont let me get out of my chair right now.

-Edward

[Jerk11]

Way to get on Roll, and early. Do this every day and it will seem like clockwork after awhile. You will absolutely LOVE the new you!

[Jerk11]

Those two previous attempts were NOT quits, they were merely stopping- QUITTING is permanent. And it is a daily lifestyle. The patches, gum, lozenges, or anything else with any Nicotine in it will not work because you my friend are a nicotine ADDICT. The sooner you realize that and acknowledge it, the better.

Damn bro- you were off that shit for 4 years and still went back!? What a sinister drug. Oh, and by the way, nicotine will not make any experience better. That is a huge lie surrounding the drug. It did not "enhance" the time you spent with your friends. All it did was curb your withdrawals from NICOTINE.. that's it! Hate to break it to you-- shit does NOT taste good, and it makes me fucking sad that you broke down after all that for the taste of cancer with your coffee. It doesn't help you kayak better or faster, either.

Throw all your nicotine products away and get into your September Quit group and be ACTIVE. You got this bro! One and done. You'll never re-live a Day 1 if you really want this. And avoid those crummy ass convenience stores. Pay at the pump. You'll thank yourself, trust me.

[Corbin]

Mosha,

Welcome to KTC. You will find more support that you every thought possible on this site, read as much as you can. I too grew up on the farm, in the fields and your right, everyone had a can in their pocket, hell my Grandpa grew it. It only took me 28 years of putting cat turds in my mouth to realize how stupid is was. I too starting mixing with Jakes and still rely on the fake stuff to get me through the tough times. It sounds like you have had a lot of quit attempts. My advise, ask yourself what are you going to do different this time so you stop trying to quit and you actually do it. Mosha, I am proud to quit with you brother.

Corbin 75

[Johnnodip]

Yep, like ODNT said, I'm quit with you today.
I will shoot you a PM, so you'll have my digits too.
A veteran reached out to me when I first quit, and I'm paying it forward now.

[Old Dog New Tricks]

Mosha... That's a great story and similar to many of us on this site. I'm really proud of you that you have decided to take your stand now. Might sound strange to have a stranger say he's proud of you, but I've been there. In fact, add about another 10 years to your story and that's where I am; Now on Day 5 of quit.

You'll be joining our September Samurai 2015 Quit Group. We have a really strong group of Bad Ass Quitters and we are ALL going to make it together. For example, this weekend, we had a group text going on our smart phones. As soon as someone had a craving, messages started flying in from 4 or 5 different KTC supporters... Bottom line, we all came through our first tough weekend without anyone caving.

I will PM you my digits. Text me or call me if you start to feel challenged. Also, lots of other quitters who have been doing this much longer than me will help you out too. Don't hesitate to lean on them.

In the meantime, surf the site, read up on symptoms, personal stories, etc. This site doesn't cost you a penny, but it's not free. Your cost is:

1. As soon as you wake up every morning, you must post roll call - which is your commitment to yourself, me and your fellow Samurai that you will not put nicotine in your system that day

2. Honor your promise and make your Quit rock solid all day.

3. Wake up the next day and repeat.

Simple. :) Talk to you soon and be strong.

[mosha]

Hi All,

I started chewing when I was about 13. Typical midwest rural kid, working outside, working on farms, working in fields. The older kids did it, so I did too. Mix that with playing baseball through high school and college, and by the time I was in my early 20s I realized I'd been chewing for 10 years.

Amazingly, before getting married, I decided to quit. Literally said to my 25 year old self one night 'i'm not going to chew anymore'. And I didn't.

Until I did.

4 years later I was on my way to spend the morning kayaking down a local river when I thought to myself "hey, you know what would make this coffee taste really great while I'm paddling? Some chew!"

So I stopped into a Mobile Gas Station and bought myself a can of Skoal Straight. I told myself I'd throw it away when I was done paddling that day.

After I got done paddling I thought - well shit, i'm gonna see my buddies tonight, and a dip would make that better.

And on and on and on. And here I am 6 years later and I'm still making up excuses. The only thing that's changed is switching from Skoal Straight to Cope

I've tried quitting lots of times, tried everything, gum, patches, lozenges, hypnotism, tobacco free chew (with nicotine). None of them worked.

About a month ago I was quit again. This time for full 5 days! Cold turkey, I thought I had it beat. Then the craving came on, then the spacey jittery feeling came in that make me feel like a junky. Then I freaked out, got in my truck, went to the gas station and bought a can and was almost crushed by the guilt of it all.

Then I started browsing around the internet and I found Jake's Mint Chew. I ordered a couple different cases to try it out. Then I started mixing my Cope 50/50 with the Jakes. i did that for a while. Then earlier today I ran out of a mixed can and only had Jakes (no cope). I had a decision to make.

I choose Quit! I'm married, have two young kids and want to live a full healthy life. I don't want to be disfigured, I don't want to die of cancer, I don't want my kids to remember me chewing. I don't want to reach for my back pocket every 5 minutes and panic if I don't hit a can.

Browsing the Jake's site, i found a link to this site. I've read through so many stories and have seen so many inspirational posts that I know this is the place for me.

What do I do now? I think post roll, but I don't know where that is, or what I say.

-Mosha