3 days in. First morning I haven't woken up hating my life and myself.
I've been hooked for a bit on Snus, the little Sweedish packets. Had a run in with them years ago, but managed to get off, then went to Sweeden this summer and gave them a try. That was months ago, been hooked since then. Made several attempts, all failed, and just resulted in me being anxious for about a month straight. Finally got tired of hating life and myself, and just powered through, now it is day 3, and the first morning I've felt calm for a long time.
It has been freaking awful, and this time I know I'm done with nicotine for good. It's effect on me is too powerful, and I'm unpleasant to be around. It seems even like, once I'm hooked, that the nicotine only gives me a bump for about 5 minutes, then I'm anxious until the next hit.
Worst thing about Snus - completely clandestine, particularly if you have a beard. I tried gums and lozenges, but those were no different - it is still nicotine. Plus the lozenges made me