Mbeckler, I can promise you that it will get better. I had quit about 15 years ago for nearly 1 year. Cold turkey... well, Big Red chewing gum stocks went up that year but no other help. It was hell. I didn't have any type of support like here at KTC back then and was simply doing it on my own. I had made a promise to my wife to stop, after 20 years (at that time) of using snuff. She had promised to quit smoking at the same time so we had only each other to help us. It was very hard for the first few days, now knowing that was getting the nicotine out. Then the "urges" were kicking in full time! But after a few more days it did seem to get easier to get my mind off of it. After a couple months, I was pretty much in control and proud of myself for getting there! But what I didn't expect was that the triggers would ebb and flow. There were things that I hadn't expected, like hunting season, that would trigger me hard since it came later in the year after I had stopped. Then at around the 11.5 month mark, I felt like I could try it again (just to remember what it was like, is what I told myself) but that was a mistake. Cause then after just on dip, I was making excuses for why I needed the next one tomorrow.
My point it, it WILL get easier with a little time, to "control yourself"... but you will NEVER be cured of addiction. Just keep telling yourself that you have come this far, and you don't want to ever have to start over again! Know that you can't ever think you can "just take one more dip"... cause you can't. I'm a 2 time quitter-but-got-weak person. This is my last time being a quitter, cause after 35 years of that crap... I have to give myself a break! If you need anything, PM me and I'll get you my number!
