Hello,
This is day one for me. Been hooked on the crap for 30 years (1.5 cans a day) I quit once for 5 years and I really regret I fell off the wagon some 15 years ago. There can not be "just one dip" ever again in my future. I know it is going to be hell going forward having that dip demon telling me it's okay to have "just one".
The one thing I do know is that it is possible to quit and I am going to fight real hard. I just hope I am mentally strong enough.
I am going to try and just take it one day at a time. Gets kinda intimidating and scary for me to think much past the "right now" and "today".
My first roll call is posted, Dec 2012.
I don't know you, but I am proud of those who have succeded and my thoughts are with those who are still in the heat of battle.
Thank you
~D~
dj - first of all - welcome and congrats on a fantastic decision. we are all mentally strong enough to battle this addiction. if you stick with what works - posting roll and making the genuine daily promise to abstain from nicotine - 90% of the work is already done. we're all capable of keeping our word.
the other 10% is making a concise plan for those times when you are faced with a severe challenge. if you ask, many quitters will provide you with their plans here in your introduction.
i do want to address one point of irony in your original post. you took a break for 5 years and then went back to nicotine. yet, you congratulate those who have succeeded? how do you define success? is there a finish line? I've been quit for over 4 years and I'm still in the heat of battle. of course, i make my pledge daily so right away the flames are smoldered. time and time again, all it takes is forgetting one's addiction and those flames are reignited. there's a part of my brain that still desires nicotine. i feel it at the most random of times. i run my tongue along my lower gums and push out on my cheek like i had a chew packed in there. without my commitment to myself and my quit brothers, who knowsÂ….for now, i can just laugh it off. god, i was such an idiot. life is good.
you are an addict. on the wagon or off, you will always be an addict. you're every bit as quit as i am.
i will not chew tobacco today.
