1st full day of quit

[Dave5280]

I almost caved yesterday.

I had a really challenging day, and I was really depressed about a lot of things. I wanted to cave for the sole purpose of being destructive. I didn't want to break anything, I didn't want to punch someone, I didn't want to kill myself or anything. I just wanted to be destructive.

For whatever reason two things popped into my head.

1. I imagined putting that chew in my mouth and what it would taste like, feel like. That burn that seemed to always calm me down.

2. I tried to remember if I had posted roll. I couldn't remember if I did or not, honestly even today I didn't check, I may have missed the day, I'll go look later.

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So now to my point.

In the past #1 wasn't enough to hold me back. Before I would have blown right though that stop sign and probably right now instead of typing in my quit log I would be standing in line at 7-eleven buying a can.

But that #2 thing. I thought more about how much it would hurt to break my promise and I just couldn't go through with it.

You guys (and girls) saved me yesterday and didn't even know it.

I just wanted to say Thanks.

Dave5280 -75- no nic today.

[Dave5280]

I am back with an update and just to complain more or less.

63 days in and I feel pretty good. I've gained a lot of weight, but it's not solely due to quitting. Something I just have to work on.

My gum of choice is 5 - React, I chew the hell out of some gum.

My main thing is that I missed posting roll on Friday, June 1st. I have no idea how that happened, but for whatever reason it really pisses me off. My main goal was never to miss a day posting roll.

Maybe I'm just 'Crazy'

This post update is putting that mistake behind me.

Thanks,

Dave

[Bean]

Well done. I haven't tried 5 Solstice. But I spent a ton of time on the candy and gum section at the check-out. I mainly go with Breathsavers Spearmint flavor. They're almost as expensive at snuff was...not including the cost of cancer treatment and funeral expenses.

[Dave5280]

Day 15.

Drank a beer while I grilled a steak. If ever I wanted a dip, it was tonight.

After dinner I settled in on my 2nd beer but to tell you the truth, after the steak, it just didn't taste good so I poured it out.

So I'm currently enjoying my new after meal oral fixation, Wrigley's 5 Solstice gum (I like the Chaos flavor better, but this is what I have so that's what I'm going with).

It's days like today that have made me grow to love roll call.

See you in the morning.

Dave

[Loppy]

I'm with ya Dave. 8 for me. Lets do this. See ya at roll call buddy.

[T-Cell]

9th day.

I don't feel too bad. I'm starting to get some mouth sores and seem to be fighting a sinus infection.

Otherwise, I have been feeling good!

I still eat too much but have been doing better than when I started.

I know I don't post much, but I really am committed to this quit.

I really want to thank everyone who posts and leaves encouragement.

Right now, I'm just concentrating on making green squares on the July spreadsheet.

Dave

Way to go Dave! Build a green wall of quit, one day at a time.

[Grizzly25]

9th day.

I don't feel too bad. I'm starting to get some mouth sores and seem to be fighting a sinus infection.

Otherwise, I have been feeling good!

I still eat too much but have been doing better than when I started.

I know I don't post much, but I really am committed to this quit.

I really want to thank everyone who posts and leaves encouragement.

Right now, I'm just concentrating on making green squares on the July spreadsheet.

Dave

Great stuff Dave!!

Keep up the good work and its not a contest to post the most or anything but there will come a time where your frustrated or just having some relapse moments and posting truly helps!

Post on here when you need to rage about the guy who cut you off on your way to work or in front of you going into the WalMart parking lot!

This site is a great tool use it and develop some friendships along the way they are what make you accountable and who will talk you off the ledge ... so to speak!

PM me if you need anything or if you need to trade some numbers.

Stay quit brother!

[Wedge]

Good job Dave. Hope to join you at day 9 in a week.

[Dave5280]

9th day.

I don't feel too bad. I'm starting to get some mouth sores and seem to be fighting a sinus infection.

Otherwise, I have been feeling good!

I still eat too much but have been doing better than when I started.

I know I don't post much, but I really am committed to this quit.

I really want to thank everyone who posts and leaves encouragement.

Right now, I'm just concentrating on making green squares on the July spreadsheet.

Dave

[Scowick65]

Just a quick update.

Last night (4th day) was the hardest night I've had.  I was at my cousin's house for dinner and I guess since it was my first dinner away from home it must have been a trigger.

I was freaking out a little bit, trying to have conversations but not really having any idea of what I was talking about.  We left about 3 hours into the dinner, and I was telling my wife, "I had a bunch of conversations, but I really don't know what I said."

We got home and I relaxed.  Had some ice cream, and watched some TV.

I didn't cave though, and I think it was a major hurdle I cleared because this morning (Day 5) I woke up with a really bad headache. 

But with some water, breakfast, coffee, and Advil, the day turned out to be really good.

I'm hanging in there.

I am determined to make it.

Thanks for listening.

Dave

Hang in there Dave. It will get better. You are doing it! Stay in charge of your quit!

KA-Pow Biatch.......nice work

Great job. You are reinventing what it is to be you. Freedom. Focus on today. 1 day at a time. You can do this. Give me a pm if you need help or a chat. :)

[CleanFuel]

Just a quick update.

Last night (4th day) was the hardest night I've had.  I was at my cousin's house for dinner and I guess since it was my first dinner away from home it must have been a trigger.

I was freaking out a little bit, trying to have conversations but not really having any idea of what I was talking about.  We left about 3 hours into the dinner, and I was telling my wife, "I had a bunch of conversations, but I really don't know what I said."

We got home and I relaxed.  Had some ice cream, and watched some TV.

I didn't cave though, and I think it was a major hurdle I cleared because this morning (Day 5) I woke up with a really bad headache. 

But with some water, breakfast, coffee, and Advil, the day turned out to be really good.

I'm hanging in there.

I am determined to make it.

Thanks for listening.

Dave

Hang in there Dave. It will get better. You are doing it! Stay in charge of your quit!

KA-Pow Biatch.......nice work

[T-Cell]

Just a quick update.

Last night (4th day) was the hardest night I've had. I was at my cousin's house for dinner and I guess since it was my first dinner away from home it must have been a trigger.

I was freaking out a little bit, trying to have conversations but not really having any idea of what I was talking about. We left about 3 hours into the dinner, and I was telling my wife, "I had a bunch of conversations, but I really don't know what I said."

We got home and I relaxed. Had some ice cream, and watched some TV.

I didn't cave though, and I think it was a major hurdle I cleared because this morning (Day 5) I woke up with a really bad headache.

But with some water, breakfast, coffee, and Advil, the day turned out to be really good.

I'm hanging in there.

I am determined to make it.

Thanks for listening.

Dave

Hang in there Dave. It will get better. You are doing it! Stay in charge of your quit!

[Remshot]

Just a quick update.

Last night (4th day) was the hardest night I've had. I was at my cousin's house for dinner and I guess since it was my first dinner away from home it must have been a trigger.

I was freaking out a little bit, trying to have conversations but not really having any idea of what I was talking about. We left about 3 hours into the dinner, and I was telling my wife, "I had a bunch of conversations, but I really don't know what I said."

We got home and I relaxed. Had some ice cream, and watched some TV.

I didn't cave though, and I think it was a major hurdle I cleared because this morning (Day 5) I woke up with a really bad headache.

But with some water, breakfast, coffee, and Advil, the day turned out to be really good.

I'm hanging in there.

I am determined to make it.

Thanks for listening.

Dave

Way to go Dave. Conquering triggers, one at a time.
Stay strong, stay close to the site, stay quit.

[Dave5280]

Just a quick update.

Last night (4th day) was the hardest night I've had. I was at my cousin's house for dinner and I guess since it was my first dinner away from home it must have been a trigger.

I was freaking out a little bit, trying to have conversations but not really having any idea of what I was talking about. We left about 3 hours into the dinner, and I was telling my wife, "I had a bunch of conversations, but I really don't know what I said."

We got home and I relaxed. Had some ice cream, and watched some TV.

I didn't cave though, and I think it was a major hurdle I cleared because this morning (Day 5) I woke up with a really bad headache.

But with some water, breakfast, coffee, and Advil, the day turned out to be really good.

I'm hanging in there.

I am determined to make it.

Thanks for listening.

Dave

[Kdip]

The last dip I had was 2-3am PST Tuesday, April 3rd. 

So I have officially passed my first 24 hours without any dip.

I lurked all day yesterday while I tried to beat back the cravings, reading as many stories of success as I could.

I've been a heavy dipper for the better part of 20 years, and off and on for over 30 years.

I tried quitting a few times, but I was never strong enough to do it.

The last 24 hours was pretty rough, I ate a LOT, but I drank a lot of water, took in a lot of fruits and Vitamin C.  I took baths, showers, played with the dogs, read, took naps, chewed gum, brushed my teeth, everything I could do to distract myself from the cravings.

The headache has been the worst, but it's better this morning than it was yesterday afternoon so I don't feel so bad.

What do I do next?

Thanks for the support

Dave

Great job you can do it and so can I. We both are in our 4th decade of slavery. That bitch knows us well look out, those triggers are everywhere. I'm always ready to listen. Let's exchange contacts if you wish. Stay quit stay strong

Dave and Wt57 , Quitting SUCKS!!! but it is the BEST decision you will ever make!!! I dipped and/or smoked for a good part of 40 years and I am over 3 years nic free One day at a time!!! If I can DO this shit so can you! Welcome to the site and PM me if can help in any way.