Depression from quitting is ruining my life

[ssever122]

Hang in there man. We are about the same amount of time in I think, and I too had the bad ass mentality a few days ago. AKA I was mad at myself and telling myself and everyone else how dedicated I was and trying to convince myself that I didn't need al this. Still kinda want that to be true a little I guess, but no one really wants to admit they are a SLAVE...to a little can full of shit! No one wants to admit they are weak enough to need help!!! Especially not from a bunch of pricks who will call you on your bullshit attitude when you have one. Am I right? I know I am... at least in my case and I hope this helps.

hmu if you need somebody to tell how badass you are lol! I'll always listen.

Oh and in case you were wondering the web site, www.billybadass.com is already taken. My fellow quitter diesel taught me that a few days ago when I was melting down. I'm not sure about .net though...

[JayDubya]

"Quitters find a way to quit; cavers find a way to cave."--30isenough


To say the above (and the other great advice you have gotten from some really badass quitters) is not picking at you or being a jerk. They are trying to reach you through a very dark tunnel. We are all here trying to help you. Here is what we see basically: the lights are on but nobody is home. Addiction has taken over your brain, you need to be quit, and you need to heal.

The decision is yours if you want to stay or go, but my friend, Im encouraging you to stay here and drink the kool-aide. I got a little irritated in my intro but I wanted to be quit more than I cared about my pride or if someone was being a jerk to me. As I began healing, I saw that i was wrong and how my brothers truly reached out to me. You will too, if you stay.

Word to the wise....

[Diesel2112]

:DQ: 'gaySOS'

[lbj]

Nope, you know what, you guys are a bunch of jerks. Forget about it. Let this topic be buried.

I hope you're proud of yourselves, this site is a sham.

You could not be more wrong , it's site is pretty Fukkn far from being a 'sham'

Sit tight and focus on what brought you here,not for a reason to say 'fuck it'

GL

[Paddington]

Newbie here.

I am going to be honest. I can see where someone who is new to this site can feel intimidated. There are some posts on here that come across as preachy. I have felt some of the posters are kool-aid drinking to the max. Is that a bad thing? Not really. Shit at this point in the game if it helps someone get off the can why not? If running downtown butt naked would take away all the mood swings, shitty feelings and pain that quitting has brought I know I would do it.

To the original poster I would stick around. I personally have no one around me or within my circle that understands what tobacco cessation feels like. The closest person would be my father who stopped smoking over 30 years ago and lives across the globe literally. Being in this predicament I have found it extremely satisfying to log on and read the experiences of others. Call it sick and twisted but reading about others suffering makes my quit seem both easier and lets me know I am not alone.

As far as the depression, anxiety, mood swings. I think the greatest thing would be exercise. Today is my day 23. I woke up this morning and put on my boots and went for a hike. I did not look at my watch, I did not look at my map, I did not look at my phone or GPS. When I finally felt I had enough I looked at all those things and realized I was over 8 miles from my front door. All in all a 17 mile hike over a few hours. I seriously feel like I chewed a mountain of grizzly and spent the night with all 12 of the delicious ladies featured in the calender hanging on my wall. You know that feeling I am talking about, that feeling we all chased using the can, that "ahhh" moment.

While I don't feel I have been around enough or been quit enough to be telling someone else what to do, here is my preachy statement for the day. Get your big boy pants on and man up, if I am quitting you can as well. Go for a hike, bike, walk, gym, whatever it is. Get some seeds, some smokey mountain, some candy, whatever it takes. Post in here and make friends. I got my first PM this morning and it felt pretty fucking good to know that I was now part of a community and someone actually gave a damn about me and my quit.

Best of luck buddy.

[Skoal Monster]

http://www.killthecan.org/additional-re ... ex-chewer/

[Skoal Monster]

Take what you need and leave the rest.

Anger bordering on rage , irritability etc are all part of the quit. Your wirings all jacked up still. As the nicotine receptors shut down and your body heals, the anger related to quitting will fade.

Anger releases alot of the same brain chemicals that dip "forced" you to produce.
Think fight or flight chemicals as well as endorphins. Getting mad is a backdoor fix for the chemicals your brain is screaming for.

Picking a fight with your wife is a sneaky way of getting a fix. There is a post under resources I think called new reactions to anger. It may also be under the quitters stories link.

Any endorphin release will help you. Working out is clinically proven to help with both craves, and anxiety. Even a walk can help you settle down.

Many people do talk to their doctor about about anti anxiety meds to help, Including me. I used ativan and xanax for over a year when I quit.
The best advice I can give you is talk to your doctor, but be cautious.

Your emotions are going to be jacked up for quite some time. Be patient. Nicotine is a potent neurotoxin more lethal ounce for ounce than cobra venom. While 6 years doesn't seem that long, You can't undo that damage in a month of quit.

So heres what you do.

Chill. Take each day at a time and do your best. But keep quitting.

pm me if you have more questions.

[AppleJack]

A humble admission of need will get you a lot farther than a dickhead know it all 'tude.

Stick around bro. This place and these people will deliver everything you need. What do you say?

[Knockout]

You don't come into a community of people who are devoted to the principles of the site, say you think a bunch of it is bullshit, then get treated like a Princess.

[Winter Green]

Nope, you know what, you guys are a bunch of jerks. Forget about it. Let this topic be buried.

I hope you're proud of yourselves, this site is a sham.

Cry me a river.

[jake frawley]

Nope, you know what, you guys are a bunch of jerks. Forget about it. Let this topic be buried.

I hope you're proud of yourselves, this site is a sham.

Thats right! It's a sham! Membership costs nothing and you gain relationships with men all of the country who support you in YOUR quit when YOU need help, with the hope that you pass it on to the next man. Crazy sham! Wish I had thought of it. I'd be rich!

[Wt57]

Nope, you know what, you guys are a bunch of jerks.  Forget about it. Let this topic be buried.

I hope you're proud of yourselves, this site is a sham.

'cry'

'butt hurt' Act like the BIG BOY you are!

[TheEnigma]

Nope, you know what, you guys are a bunch of jerks. Forget about it. Let this topic be buried.

I hope you're proud of yourselves, this site is a sham.

[TheEnigma]

I'll give a real reply in a second.

No, I'm not a tool and I'm not sure this site needs anyone calling people names. I just have an opinion, but even people with opinions needs help sometimes.

[Mthomas3824]

LMAO!!! 'crackup'

I'm 29 years old, so I don't need much advice.  I've been around the world.  I've been through a lot.  I know how to deal.

I'm 56 years old and seen a lot, dipped way longer than you've lived and what quitting involves is bullshit.

I don't even know why I'm writing here.  A lot of the stuff I've seen here is BS, because quite frankly, it's not quitting that's fucked with me, it's my moods.

The mode swings are part of the reprogramming your addicted brain. I wish you best of luck because that's what you're gonna need. Throwing meds in is probably a good idea for an addict. Go for it, along with luck your off and running. Quitting KTC style doesn't have anything to do with luck but you obviously know a lot. 'crackup' are you 29 or 19? You sound like a smart teenager.

23 days of quitting is good but you are far from in the clear. We've seen many a really smart quitter cave into their addiction after 100's of days and years.

BTW 'Finger' Back to ya!

Troll written all over this. Will he even check back to see any responses? I doubt it!

Hmm a 29 year old who has it all figured out and been quit since Jan 7th....

Or

a 50+ man that is humble enough to know when he needs help, has been committed to his family, work, church, etc. Oh and quit since April 2012.

As for me, I'll stick with the wise older owl.

As for the Egnima.....I think somebody needs a nap and a diaper change.

Egnima, you are losing the war on nicotine because you are blind. She is pulling the legs out from under your chair....If you don't fix it....You're going to fall on your knees and go back to worshiping the evil in a can.

Just a fair warning to the cocky self appointed bad ass. Not that you will listen. You already have it all figured out. 'crackup'