Hutch18 - quit

[FISHFLORIDA]

Doctors update: I am not on deaths door, but my body is not 100% either (didnÂ’t need to pay someone to tell me that). But without going into all the details, my gut is not absorbing the minerals and nutrients I need. So I get to take supplements, so excited (sarcasm). But it sure could have been worse. She, yes my doctor is a she, and she is attractive in a purely professional sense. (CanÂ’t wait till the turn left/right and cough test) but I digress. Anyway she agrees that dipping hid some of the symptoms and now that I QUIT it just feels worse. But there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Might take 3 - 6 months or 3-6 weeks, but itÂ’s still hope and for a recovering addict that means everything!

Stay quit!

I'd always wondered about the 'turn your head and cough' routine.  So I asked the doctor what that was about.  He said, "so you don't cough on my head". figures.

glad to hear the doc went smoothly

[Athan]

Doctors update: I am not on deaths door, but my body is not 100% either (didnÂ’t need to pay someone to tell me that). But without going into all the details, my gut is not absorbing the minerals and nutrients I need. So I get to take supplements, so excited (sarcasm). But it sure could have been worse. She, yes my doctor is a she, and she is attractive in a purely professional sense. (CanÂ’t wait till the turn left/right and cough test) but I digress. Anyway she agrees that dipping hid some of the symptoms and now that I QUIT it just feels worse. But there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Might take 3 - 6 months or 3-6 weeks, but itÂ’s still hope and for a recovering addict that means everything!

Stay quit!

I'd always wondered about the 'turn your head and cough' routine. So I asked the doctor what that was about. He said, "so you don't cough on my head". figures.

[Hutch18]

Doctors update: I am not on deaths door, but my body is not 100% either (didnÂ’t need to pay someone to tell me that). But without going into all the details, my gut is not absorbing the minerals and nutrients I need. So I get to take supplements, so excited (sarcasm). But it sure could have been worse. She, yes my doctor is a she, and she is attractive in a purely professional sense. (CanÂ’t wait till the turn left/right and cough test) but I digress. Anyway she agrees that dipping hid some of the symptoms and now that I QUIT it just feels worse. But there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Might take 3 - 6 months or 3-6 weeks, but itÂ’s still hope and for a recovering addict that means everything!

Stay quit!

[FISHFLORIDA]

Has it really been that many days since I updated this? Damn that was fast. It's day 65 as I write this. I met my first fellow quitter today in person, none other than Broccoli-saurus. I honestly thought it would be a bit weird, but it wasn't. It was nice meeting someone who understands what i am experiencing first hand.

Update on me: still have good days and bad days. Seeing the Doctor tomorrow and reviewing my blood work and other tests. Going to ask her about my persistent tingling and throat soreness, but it's probably my body adjusting to the fact that i am no longer gutting chewing tobacco.

I am a very emotional person, and this QUIT has challenged me to figure out what is most important in my life and 67 days ago dip would have made it on my top 10 list of things I need. Can you believe that? I plant that is trying to kill me would make my top 10 list, am I crazy? No, but I am an addict and always will be. I need this site to help me meet people who understand the mental struggles and who will keep me accountable. I need this site, so i can make the commitment everyday, not to myself but to my brothers. I need this site and the people on it to remind me why its worth it.

I will be honest, i don't think of dipping all day everyday anymore. But I still think of it, i still think about situations that I will face without dip for the first time in 34 years. How will i handle it? I know how I plan to handle it and that is the major difference in this final quit. I have a plan. Before I didn't have a plan or support. I had me. That's it and I am an addict. So that was never going to work.

So my suggestion to anyone reading this who hasn't quit. Quit today. Anyone reading this who quit but isn't actively involved in helping someone else quit, then start. When you serve someone else, its usually you (the server) that gets the biggest blessing!

Stay Quit!

Hutch,
Good work man. First of all, it's a good thing to see the Doc (specially' if she's hot!) to clear your head and get that clean bill of health. It really helps with any anxieties.
Next... All those tingling feelings and the strangeness in your mouth (no sick jokes here folks) is your body adjusting to no nicotine. For the first 2 months of my quit, it felt like my teeth were Mexican jumping beans. They literally felt as if they were falling outta my head. I would actually go to the mirror and (close up) with my index finger and thumb, grab them and see if they were moving and loose. They were not, but for god's sake id swear they were. The bottom line is that you body is adjusting. It's pushing and pulling to try and find the new norm. I'm quite positive it will and when it does settle into it's new era of dip free life, it's going to feel great. You are not alone in those feelings.
Hit me up if you need another set of digits.
FF

[Aumegrad]

Great words Hutch, I needed this to start my day! Your post is very much appreciated.

I proudly quit with you today!

[Hutch18]

Has it really been that many days since I updated this? Damn that was fast. It's day 65 as I write this. I met my first fellow quitter today in person, none other than Broccoli-saurus. I honestly thought it would be a bit weird, but it wasn't. It was nice meeting someone who understands what i am experiencing first hand.

Update on me: still have good days and bad days. Seeing the Doctor tomorrow and reviewing my blood work and other tests. Going to ask her about my persistent tingling and throat soreness, but it's probably my body adjusting to the fact that i am no longer gutting chewing tobacco.

I am a very emotional person, and this QUIT has challenged me to figure out what is most important in my life and 67 days ago dip would have made it on my top 10 list of things I need. Can you believe that? I plant that is trying to kill me would make my top 10 list, am I crazy? No, but I am an addict and always will be. I need this site to help me meet people who understand the mental struggles and who will keep me accountable. I need this site, so i can make the commitment everyday, not to myself but to my brothers. I need this site and the people on it to remind me why its worth it.

I will be honest, i don't think of dipping all day everyday anymore. But I still think of it, i still think about situations that I will face without dip for the first time in 34 years. How will i handle it? I know how I plan to handle it and that is the major difference in this final quit. I have a plan. Before I didn't have a plan or support. I had me. That's it and I am an addict. So that was never going to work.

So my suggestion to anyone reading this who hasn't quit. Quit today. Anyone reading this who quit but isn't actively involved in helping someone else quit, then start. When you serve someone else, its usually you (the server) that gets the biggest blessing!

Stay Quit!

[Doofus]

Poof

[AppleJack]

Day 59 - writing in this journal helps me keep sane. I hear all these quitters talking about how much easier it is after day . . . Well crap I am on day 59 and I feel slightly better. I sleep well and I haven't gained the weight, but damn this tingling in the jaw and over my head and down my body sucks. My mind or rather the nicotine mind is trying to pull me back. How you might ask? Because I didn't feel this way 59 days ago, so maybe if I dipped again I would feel normal. Let me let you in on a little secret. That is 1000% true, I would feel normal again. But I don't want to feel normal again. I don't want to feel like the guy who dipped for 30+ years. I want a new NORMAL. This crappy feeling, however long it will last will be worth it. But I need you're help. When you hear me bitching about it or complaining about it and i get closer to the edge of you know the C A V E. Then remind me a NEW Normal is worth it. Because the OLD Normal wasn't much better, it was an illusion and a lie.

Stay Quit! ODAAT

Food for thought...

What you’re calling your “old normal” was not any kind of normal. It was a drug induced fallacy.

No more looking back.

What you want to be... do it. Leave nicotine behind. YouÂ’re not a user anymore.

[Hutch18]

Day 59 - writing in this journal helps me keep sane. I hear all these quitters talking about how much easier it is after day . . . Well crap I am on day 59 and I feel slightly better. I sleep well and I haven't gained the weight, but damn this tingling in the jaw and over my head and down my body sucks. My mind or rather the nicotine mind is trying to pull me back. How you might ask? Because I didn't feel this way 59 days ago, so maybe if I dipped again I would feel normal. Let me let you in on a little secret. That is 1000% true, I would feel normal again. But I don't want to feel normal again. I don't want to feel like the guy who dipped for 30+ years. I want a new NORMAL. This crappy feeling, however long it will last will be worth it. But I need you're help. When you hear me bitching about it or complaining about it and i get closer to the edge of you know the C A V E. Then remind me a NEW Normal is worth it. Because the OLD Normal wasn't much better, it was an illusion and a lie.

Stay Quit! ODAAT

[Hutch18]

Star date - Sept 3rd 2018, 56 days quit and I have ginger in my mouth. WTF, if you would have bet me I would have raw ginger in my mouth on Labor day instead of a BIG FAT dip, i'd say you were crazy. Would have lost that bet and I am glad. 56 days ain't much compared to Kdip's 10 years, but it's longer than i have ever quit before. Taking roll helps, texting people everyday helps, but what really helps more than anything else is not wanting to relive day 1 - 20. That sucked and some days still suck.

I still get the tingling, but my BP is down. I still have tingling on my jaw line and get dizzy and foggy, but not all day. I get better everyday. I feel better everyday.

If you are struggling through a quit or through anything in life, remember this. Nicotine is not the answer, it's the problem. Experiencing life without it takes time, but it beats Ninja dipping at 2 am or waking up to find out your can is empty and the search for the secret back up stash begins. I am thankful on the Labor Day, not because i am not working, but because i am not working with GINGER in my LIP instead of Nicotine.

Ginger. Gilligan wished for that. I hadn't thought of it. How is it? Does it work? I rolled with cinnamon sticks for the longest time. Still use 'em on long drives.

It burns like a good lipper would and has other good health benefits. Mint leaves work too.

[Athan]

Star date - Sept 3rd 2018, 56 days quit and I have ginger in my mouth. WTF, if you would have bet me I would have raw ginger in my mouth on Labor day instead of a BIG FAT dip, i'd say you were crazy. Would have lost that bet and I am glad. 56 days ain't much compared to Kdip's 10 years, but it's longer than i have ever quit before. Taking roll helps, texting people everyday helps, but what really helps more than anything else is not wanting to relive day 1 - 20. That sucked and some days still suck.

I still get the tingling, but my BP is down. I still have tingling on my jaw line and get dizzy and foggy, but not all day. I get better everyday. I feel better everyday.

If you are struggling through a quit or through anything in life, remember this. Nicotine is not the answer, it's the problem. Experiencing life without it takes time, but it beats Ninja dipping at 2 am or waking up to find out your can is empty and the search for the secret back up stash begins. I am thankful on the Labor Day, not because i am not working, but because i am not working with GINGER in my LIP instead of Nicotine.

Ginger. Gilligan wished for that. I hadn't thought of it. How is it? Does it work? I rolled with cinnamon sticks for the longest time. Still use 'em on long drives.

[Hutch18]

Star date - Sept 3rd 2018, 56 days quit and I have ginger in my mouth. WTF, if you would have bet me I would have raw ginger in my mouth on Labor day instead of a BIG FAT dip, i'd say you were crazy. Would have lost that bet and I am glad. 56 days ain't much compared to Kdip's 10 years, but it's longer than i have ever quit before. Taking roll helps, texting people everyday helps, but what really helps more than anything else is not wanting to relive day 1 - 20. That sucked and some days still suck.

I still get the tingling, but my BP is down. I still have tingling on my jaw line and get dizzy and foggy, but not all day. I get better everyday. I feel better everyday.

If you are struggling through a quit or through anything in life, remember this. Nicotine is not the answer, it's the problem. Experiencing life without it takes time, but it beats Ninja dipping at 2 am or waking up to find out your can is empty and the search for the secret back up stash begins. I am thankful on the Labor Day, not because i am not working, but because i am not working with GINGER in my LIP instead of Nicotine.

[Hutch18]

.....Like all the long time KTC addicts, excuse me, i meant to say long time KTC users ...

That's OK brother, I've come to acknowledge, even embrace, the addict. I am an addict. It's part of me but it no longer defines me!
IQWYT!

Today I am addicted to KTC and being a bad ass. Tomorrow I may try Yoga!

Day 53 - was chatting with a few long time quitters and decided to update my intro. Not for anyone else's sake but for my sake. If it helps someone else good, but this really is about me. The fellow brothers and sisters who quit can help me, they can inspire me, they can keep me accountable, but at the end of the day (or in the middle of it) it's my choice not to dip. It's my choice to tell the nicotine monster, bitch or whatever you call it to go away. It's my choice to say 'Finger' you and i choose not to lead that life again.

I am so thankful I found this site, so thankful for the quitters before me who are still actively helping others. This shit is real and it totally worth it.

Happy Labor Day weekend. First Dip free Labor Day in 34 years, that is reason to celebrate!

[Capital70]

.....Like all the long time KTC addicts, excuse me, i meant to say long time KTC users ...

That's OK brother, I've come to acknowledge, even embrace, the addict. I am an addict. It's part of me but it no longer defines me!
IQWYT!

Today I am addicted to KTC and being a bad ass. Tomorrow I may try Yoga!

[Athan]

.....Like all the long time KTC addicts, excuse me, i meant to say long time KTC users ...

That's OK brother, I've come to acknowledge, even embrace, the addict. I am an addict. It's part of me but it no longer defines me!
IQWYT!