Hello fellow quitters. My name is Barry and I am on day 36 of my quit. I was trolling this site and then decided to join as I needed support and accountability. My story: Dipped snuff for 30 + years and when I would stop I would end up smoking. I have a wife and 2 children, aged 18 and 16 that I hid my addition from for the last 2 years after I told them I quit. In November something hit me that if I do not quit I will not see certain milestones in my family's lives and really started to worry about who would take care of them. All for what, some crap in a can? I am not quitting for them but for me now, I want to be around. Since I have quit these last 36 days have been a train wreck. I do not know if I have convinced myself something drastic is wrong with me, or that I waited too long to quit. I have been to urgent care twice for a sore throat and then to the ENT once, who diagnosed me,after and endoscopy, with LPR (acid reflux) which has gotten a lot worse since I quit. I have a dentist appointment on Thursday, first one in 10 years and I am also making an appointment with a primary care Dr. as I have not been to one of those in a long time too. I have cried more in the last month than I have in the last ten years combined (depression?), I have also come clean with my family on my lies about my addition and they have been very supportive. However, I know my wife is getting sick of hearing about my symptoms and even asked me when I am zoned out if I am thinking about my "fake cancer". Right now I believe that nicotine and Google are the devil. I am finally started to sleep some but the first thing I think about when I wake up is my health and what I have done to it, major anxiety. My sore throat is getting better but at times it feels like there is a lump in my throat,I have ear pain, ringing in my ears and I am loosing weight, my body is acting in ways I have never felt before and these symptoms were not there before I decided to quit. This site caught my attention with the symptoms of quitting as others sites do not do justice, it gives me some piece of mind to understand what others are going through or have went through. It is amazing how nicotine can control your body and mind, no more for me. After posting roll the first time 2 days ago, I have already received support from numerous people, I know that I am in the right place. Thanks guys, this really feels like a team effort already with individual accountability, this quit can and will be done. Sorry for the late intro, long post, and whining. Thanks to all!!