Hi Everyone,
I found this site after looking around some last night. I have never tried one of these communities to help get me to finally stop dipping. I think it makes sense to start from the beginning so here it goes...
I remember my first dip- a berry pouch- when I was 17. Just one gave me a buzz like I never imagined, I had never smoked weed or cigarettes so to me this was a great way to kill some time and get a buzz. Eventually it turned into more of a habit. Throughout the end of high school and heading into college I went to the harder stuff (Wintergreen Grizz) and would throw one every day or so.
I played sports at a high collegiate level. Unfortunately, I endured several season ending injuries over my 5 years (4 years of eligibility one year for medical redshirt), which derailed my sports career. Every time I would go through surgery and rehab to get back healthy, I would throw a dip during those times to help get me through, whether that be after a workout, before, or simply a bus ride to a game. I remember walking down to practices as early as 5 am, head phones blasting, with a lip in my mouth to get a workout in before practice. I needed it, it got me mentally ready to crush anything in my way.
So here I am at 27 today, using a tin a day if not more of Winter Green Grizz. I have tried multiple times to stop. I have gone so far as to drink the dip spit in the bottle so it would repulse me- did not work. I have made it to 3-4 weeks cold turkey but eventually let the demons back in. I have tried grinds coffee pouches and my own mother even offered me a large sum of money to stop and I wasn't able to stop.
I am sick of being a slave to something as stupid as chewing tobacco. I have used it as a crutch to get through very hard times in my life. I am willing to give this community a try, this is a last ditch effort. I feel like my window is closing before it starts seriously effecting my health.
New year, new me, it is time to man up.
I look forward to meeting the community and not only being able to stop myself but hopefully help others who feel as helpless as myself.