Well, its been a long time(in my eyes) since I posted on the site. I seemingly vanished probably to most.
I took an overseas job in Iraq for some electrical work and knew I wouldn't be able to post roll, so instead of explaining myself I decided disappearing was my best action(idiot right?)
I sadly have to admit that I did cave, not immediately after leaving KTC, and actually not for near 30 days after leaving. But regardless, I caved. The stress of being in a country like that, not seeing my family, my girlfriend for months, eventually took over. I realize there is no excuse for caving, and I'm not asking anyone to sit here and feel sorry for me(and trust me,the 30 days experience I have on this site,I know no one will) The idea that I gave in to this garbage addiction for a sorry ass excuse of not seeing loved ones made me realize that what I have started again could make me never see them again.
I am not perfect, I'm a human being with a horrible addiction. This site gave me light at the end of the tunnel and I seemingly blew it. I was never as confident kicking this addiction than I was when I spent my time here, so if you'll let me, I'd love to post roll today and get a fresh start