Same here. CMARK suggested this intro.
Looks like you have finally reached that place where you, way deep down inside, want to be quit. You've found home.
Every damn day make the promise here to your brothers and sisters and, most importantly, to yourself.
The days stack up. Slowly at first, no doubt.
The agony continues, but each day infinitesimally less.. Those infinitesimal days begin to add upon each other, and before you know it that other person you described realizes that THEY are going to lose the battle. And you come out on top.
Just keep posting daily.. NO EXCUSES. Once you allow yourself a "pass" for missing roll, you've already lost.
EDD and you win. You make a daily 24 hour promise not to use, honor your word and beat the nic. It really is that simple.
Wolfe
