I’ve been here a total of six days, and quit for seven days. I haven’t posted an intro yet, because I felt I needed some time under my belt to cope with my quit before I could correctly articulate why I’m here.
I’m 41 and have been dipping for 20 years. I started to dip to quit smoking. Ironically switching one problem for a another. Bottom line is I’ve been a slave to a pack or a can for more than half of my life and finally have had enough. I don’t know what real life feels like. I’ve been under the thumb of nicotine for so long I don’t know how to feel things without it. It’s sad really, I don’t know how to feel happy without a dead cancerous plant in my lip.
Until now, I’ve never had the balls to take my life into my own hands and own my addiction...MY ADDICTION. It isn’t the fault of life, or stress, bad days other people, work or whatever else life brings. Those things are all excuses for justifying dip, this is MY ADDICTION, owned by me alone and will be beaten by me...
...not alone. That is why I’m here. I stumbled into this site by chance, trying to find tools to cope with my quit. What I found, in addition to a great collection of information, is a family of likeminded people all dealing with their own personal demons. Every addict needs a support group, some ears to bend when you need to vent, a swift size 12 up the ass when you need motivation. This site works for me, so long as I put in the effort. WUPP, ODAAT, and I’d offer another one I use: OMAAT...one minute at a time. Sometime I need to get through a minute or a few to stay on course. Bottom line, I’m doing it and I owe it to myself and my quit brothers and sisters to stay accountable and own MY LIFE, and never let a can control it again.
