I find it to be incredibly amazing how far I have come in my quit. I am currently on day 672. Day one feels like a lifetime ago. I don't even think of dip at all anymore expect when I am talking to someone with a dip in their mouth in front or me, or when I literally look up at some Corner store and see the rows of cancer cans. I had a bit of epiphany the other day. I really don't think about dipping AT ALL anymore, and that is precisely what I am worried about. I am in this for the long haul and I have read different posts about people being much further along than I am, in terms of days quit, that have been lulled into a false state of invincibility, so to speak, and have the nic bitch bring them back in to her death grip. It all starts with forgetting to post roll once , then twice, then maybe not on the weekends. Then, it's only every other day, then hardly at all. There was something one of the vets on this site said about how fragile our quits all are. I think it was Chewie who said, "We are all one trip to the corner store and a five dollar bill away from becoming a can a day slave to the nic bitch at any moment." Stuff like that really freaks me out sometimes. I know my quit is strong, but I also know that it could be easily broken from complacency or in a moment of deep desperation or emotional turmoil. I know a quitter on here that has gone through horrible things in his life and he continues to deal with such hardships, but he has stayed quit no matter what. Such commitment to staying quit and his respect for his fellow quitters is awe inspiring. So, no, right now I don't think about dip at all, but I also know that none of us are immune to hard times in our life. I know that during those dark times I will need my quit brothers and sisters more than ever. I need this place. I need it to remind me have far I have come not just in my quit but in my growth as a man. I need this site to remind what I once was. I need to this site to find support and receive support from my many like minded brothers. This site has helped me more than I can even put into words. This site has empowered me to become the man I have always know that I could be. Being able to quit helps much more than you health. It helps every aspect of your life. Personally, my self confidence increased greatly since joining KTC. I am also not nearly as negative as I have been in the past. I now realize that you only get one life and it is best to make the most out of it. My whole outlook has been affected. I know that this could not have been possibly without every single quitter that has reached out and helped me in some way or another. So I just want to say thank you to everyone that has helped to change my life, my WHOLE life, for the better. If any of you need help yourself, just say the word. I love you guys.
-Tsmith17
