New and Day 1

[kkljinc]

What can I say about this past week? How can I explain to someone else exactly what I have been through so far.
Some words come to mind offhand - hell - torture - skull bashing- on fire - loopy - dizzy - distracted - Rage - bonding - brotherhood - strength - power over Nic ....

So many thoughts have and continue to run through my mind non stop. The thing I can't get over is the sense of the brotherhood, I mean I'm not as close as most people are on here and I can see it in everyone's posts. Whenever I get a chance in my hectic day I try to read through some posts. Half my battle there is my schedule just being so busy, the other is doing all of this from my cell phone.

I am still fighting urges and craves, fighting the temper flare ups and everything else that pops up. I have not given up, have not caved and stay true to the quit. After a week it's getting a little easier

So to everyone out there if you are thinking about quitting - do it, do it now. There is no time like now, it will not get any easier later. For everyone who has started the quit- keep strong and hang on. Keep it touch with your brothers and read the posts. For the old timers on here - Thank you - Thank You - Thank You!!! You guys have given me the strength and courage to do this.

To all my quit brothers in June - keep it up and keep it strong. Keep the quit going!!

Way to go Scott! Just remember to keep your quit close. After a week you get a new feeling of being solid. Then a trigger or a crave will hit you like a ton of bricks. If you have gone this far you can go another day, then wash rinse and repeat. Keep it up, I am just as committed to you as any other brother on this site.

[Rob1985]

Never would have thought how great you'd feel without dip, right?! Never thought it was possible to feel so free, right?

Now keep this last week of Hell in your mind every day you wake up, because you don't want to have to repeat it again. Never Again For Any Reason!

The first week is a bitch, but damn it feels good to make it that far! It's all good things from here. Keep your guard up though, the nic bitch wants you back! Keep some gun or food to chew on close by, stay true to yourself and to us! I quit with you!

Read my signature.. soak it up! shocker

[Wade]

Hell yes Scott! You are the man! This past week sucked didn't it? Whew. Glad we're on the other side of it. Stay strong brother! Keep up the fight. Don't let that bitch get you down. I'm here, fighting her every day too!

[Mike_Land]

What can I say about this past week? How can I explain to someone else exactly what I have been through so far.
Some words come to mind offhand - hell - torture - skull bashing- on fire - loopy - dizzy - distracted - Rage - bonding - brotherhood - strength - power over Nic ....

So many thoughts have and continue to run through my mind non stop. The thing I can't get over is the sense of the brotherhood, I mean I'm not as close as most people are on here and I can see it in everyone's posts. Whenever I get a chance in my hectic day I try to read through some posts. Half my battle there is my schedule just being so busy, the other is doing all of this from my cell phone.

I am still fighting urges and craves, fighting the temper flare ups and everything else that pops up. I have not given up, have not caved and stay true to the quit. After a week it's getting a little easier

So to everyone out there if you are thinking about quitting - do it, do it now. There is no time like now, it will not get any easier later. For everyone who has started the quit- keep strong and hang on. Keep it touch with your brothers and read the posts. For the old timers on here - Thank you - Thank You - Thank You!!! You guys have given me the strength and courage to do this.

To all my quit brothers in June - keep it up and keep it strong. Keep the quit going!!

hang in there scott. All these feeling you are having are completely normal. We have to man up and fight through them. This is the price we pay for having let the nic bitch rule our lives. All of these things will get better with time. craves will not be as often or severe. The rage will lessen. Please don't take that rage out on your family. Come here to KTC and vent. Call a quit buddy and rage at him.

You are only a week in. Unfortunately it will probably get a little worse before it gets better. But I promise that it will get better. Hang tough. You can do this.

Don't let the nic bitch win!!

Mike

[Scottm1682]

What can I say about this past week? How can I explain to someone else exactly what I have been through so far.
Some words come to mind offhand - hell - torture - skull bashing- on fire - loopy - dizzy - distracted - Rage - bonding - brotherhood - strength - power over Nic ....

So many thoughts have and continue to run through my mind non stop. The thing I can't get over is the sense of the brotherhood, I mean I'm not as close as most people are on here and I can see it in everyone's posts. Whenever I get a chance in my hectic day I try to read through some posts. Half my battle there is my schedule just being so busy, the other is doing all of this from my cell phone.

I am still fighting urges and craves, fighting the temper flare ups and everything else that pops up. I have not given up, have not caved and stay true to the quit. After a week it's getting a little easier

So to everyone out there if you are thinking about quitting - do it, do it now. There is no time like now, it will not get any easier later. For everyone who has started the quit- keep strong and hang on. Keep it touch with your brothers and read the posts. For the old timers on here - Thank you - Thank You - Thank You!!! You guys have given me the strength and courage to do this.

To all my quit brothers in June - keep it up and keep it strong. Keep the quit going!!

[Scottm1682]

I have been off the meds for 8 months or maybe even a year now. I need to start tracking my BP again with the quit and with my diet change.

[EFNKodiak]

Thanks that's good to know. I stopped taking the meds they gave me and I'm running a little high, 160/ 100 give or take

Be careful just quitting meds. Had a good friend have stroke about a year ago from high blood pressure, we almost lost her... not something to take lightly.

Yeah I weened off of it over the course of a few weeks. Hopefully with this change and if I can get my diet back right I'll be doing good

I too am on BP meds and noticed my BP drop once I stopped dipping. For now I am sticking with the meds until I follow up with my Doc. Last year I stopped taking my BP meds and ended up with on unexpected trip to the hospital. I'm no doctor, but I would recommend staying with the meds until you follow up with a physician. Stay strong with your quit. The rage and anger will be gone soon and things will get better. Just remember how bad this sucks when you have craves in the future.

[Scottm1682]

At times I feel like I could be the Incredible Hulk... The amount of anger and rage that I suppress daily cannot be good. I am fuming --- jerk at work throws a can of dip on my desk this morning. I threw it back and said no thank you I quit and I'm not giving in like you did. It feels like my ears are going to burst

well done, next time take it to the toilet and flush it, as that will show him not to pull that crap with you.

be strong, the raging will get less and less the more +1 you put up on your scoreboard. For me its 267 to 0, rage is gone except for when having to deal with dumbasses (but that was most likely there before too).

you got this

Thanks- that would have been priceless. I just know I don't want to be around and smell it


Lol
in my line of work I deal with total morons all day.

[SirDerek]

At times I feel like I could be the Incredible Hulk... The amount of anger and rage that I suppress daily cannot be good. I am fuming --- jerk at work throws a can of dip on my desk this morning. I threw it back and said no thank you I quit and I'm not giving in like you did. It feels like my ears are going to burst

well done, next time take it to the toilet and flush it, as that will show him not to pull that crap with you.

be strong, the raging will get less and less the more +1 you put up on your scoreboard. For me its 267 to 0, rage is gone except for when having to deal with dumbasses (but that was most likely there before too).

you got this

[Scottm1682]

At times I feel like I could be the Incredible Hulk... The amount of anger and rage that I suppress daily cannot be good. I am fuming --- jerk at work throws a can of dip on my desk this morning. I threw it back and said no thank you I quit and I'm not giving in like you did. It feels like my ears are going to burst

[Scottm1682]

This weekend was tough. I fought urges, cravings and utter rage all weekend. It made me think back to when I chewed all these years, heck even last month, when I would say I'm not going to quit or be able to quit unless I want too. At the time I didn't want to quit, dip was something I enjoyed for myself and didn't care what anyone else thought. Last week I made the decision to quit and I have stayed strong and true to that. Like I said this was a bad weekend, so bad I was even questioning well did I really want to quit to begin with and why would I do that? I shook it off and stayed quit. I have know for a while that my redhead wife has the redhead temper and hormones and it takes very little to set her off. I mean I know at this stage I'm sure I'm coming across a little short but the entire situation is messed up. I know none of this is an excuse so I am here just to bitch a little. I mean my mother in law moved in with us in January and we have to cover 99% of her expenses, my sister in law came to stay for the week as well. My wife was bugging me about going for a day shopping trip yesterday. I told her no for them to have a girls day. I was watching a show when she got home so started getting mad that I wasn't paying attention to her. After a couple hours we went for a ride just her and I, I wanted to see what the snow was doing. Well short of typing everything I hear from her how I'm an ass and mean. I asked what did I do and I get well its not today it's the past few years, I wish we never met, blah blah blah.

I wanted to get a can so bad but I stayed strong. I'll keep fighting

[Scottm1682]

Thanks that's good to know. I stopped taking the meds they gave me and I'm running a little high, 160/ 100 give or take

Be careful just quitting meds. Had a good friend have stroke about a year ago from high blood pressure, we almost lost her... not something to take lightly.

Yeah I weened off of it over the course of a few weeks. Hopefully with this change and if I can get my diet back right I'll be doing good

[Marcusaurelius]

Thanks that's good to know. I stopped taking the meds they gave me and I'm running a little high, 160/ 100 give or take

Be careful just quitting meds. Had a good friend have stroke about a year ago from high blood pressure, we almost lost her... not something to take lightly.

[Scottm1682]

Thanks that's good to know. I stopped taking the meds they gave me and I'm running a little high, 160/ 100 give or take

[SirDerek]

Well I fail at the food side but I'm doing good keeping away from the dip. Just picked up a combo meal and coffee from dunkin donuts.... Someone mentioned eating nuts ha ha.

I think I need to find a hard candy or something I can keep in my pocket. I have high blood pressure so I'm sure the salty seeds are not helping.

Any of the HOF had slightly high blood pressure before quitting? I'm hoping the quit and diet change will cure the hypertension.

Classic case for that right here.

Before I quit I had been to the doctor, 4th week of June last year. I was on meds for high blood pressure. Reading still came out to 160/100.

I quit on Jul 1st.

When I have been for my 3 month checks ups since my blood pressure was 130/90 and 140/90 (and been bad with taking my meds so this is almost medication free). Now I am 42 and weigh 290 so I have the extra weight playing into this, but you can clearly see that quitting has helped this portion of my health.