Day 75......3/4 of the way to HOF. That feels good to think about for the moment. I'm proud of it.
Just yesterday I was reminded of a few things that I needed to put in here for later reference.
I woke up yesterday with knowing that after work (5:30p.m.) I would have to drive 3.5 hrs back home on the other side of the state.
This would be my first "road trip" if you will, since my quit date began. And I felt the anxiety almost immediately after I WUPP that morning.
So the work day goes on, and at about 3 pm, I start digging into my bag of KTC tools. I text my very best brother in quit Athan and ask of he'll be around his phone at 6 pm central time, because I know I'll be filling up my truck and getting on the road. And that convenience shop (kwik shop) is my trigger. And for some reason, it's almost haunting me just thinking about what's to come.
So my bro Athan, the man that he is, which is a bad ass quitter and just stand up man of everything good in life, calls me and we make arrangements for me to call him AS I'm pulling up to the gas station and before i even exit my truck to pump gas.
The next thing that happens makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. The phone rings at around 4:30 and Athan says "i just wanted to make sure my phone reception works where im at because this is where ill be when you call".....so I confirm I can hear him loud and clear....then he says "excellent, ok, love you, goodbye"
That made me laugh my ass off in front of co-workers who will never understand. And I love that. With KTC, I found a complete stranger who has my same sense of humor, and knows truly what it means to help someone. And not just Athan, there's so many in just my group alone (APRIL 18 baby!!!)
So 6 pm rolls around and the call is made. I buy some red bull, gum, get my truck filled and Athan was with me the whole time. I never thought on day 74, i would still have my brain telling me that i wanted to buy a can of copenhagen. But with a brothers help, and me knowing damn well just how little self control I can have at times, I made it through this hurdle in my mind. I drove the 3.5 hours thinking about how I've changed and I hope it's all for the better.
I want to stay on this quit thing forever, but for now, I'm just gonna focus on today.
75 days ago I wouldn't have had this knowledge, these tools. There are 25 other phone numbers in my phone I could reach out to at any given time. It's powerful to think about.
So I'll be out in BFE Kansas for the weekend, gotta hike up a hill about 1/4 mile each day to ï¹°Wï¹°Uï¹°Pï¹°P, but it won't affect me being here bright and fucking early each morning, welcoming the challenge my former self has presented me with.
I'm proud to be quit today, and if you just read this damn novel, I'm even more proud to quit with you today.