Just need to vent somewhere.
I'm depressed about life, all of it, not one day goes by where I'm like hey I'm glad to be alive...my life has been a complete series of failures, I have quit prolly over 30-40 jobs in my life from stupidity or health reasons, have lost a family that I loved, live with my fucking parents at 30, work at Pizza Hut part time, have no money for anything, have sold numerous things to keep my head above water, lost my nice apartment, am gonna lose my car. Had to leave a 60-70k a year job due to injury/ laziness... Have not had a gf in 3 years, I understand why I don't have one now because I live with my parents and don't have a good job, but what about when I did have those things? I don't do drugs or drink so that's not the problem... I thought quitting was maybe the answer, maybe it was affecting my attitude towards life, WRONG!!!! Life just gets shittier and it's pissing me off on why I just can't have a normal life, wife...kids...job...car...house...and most of all happiness. I do have a daughter that is the world to me...however I wanted more kids than just one and 30 is a bit over the hill to be having kids to me....I've been hearing the same fucking story that shit happens for a reason and things will get better...BULLSHIT!!!! Oh and did I forget to mention that I have absolutely no friends and that is not an over stated fact... There are two people who call me my mom and my ex gf if there is an issue with my daughter that's it...getting more and more bitter and pissed off about life and just needed to vent because there is no one to listen. Furthermore I do understand that chew does not fix any of these problems (thanks sM) but my brain tells me it will. I am still quit for today
Please excuse the jumping all around in this post I do have ADHD and just kindof type what is going through my head.