8 Days in:
I believe I saw that I should keep this all in my intro post so it would be in one place and serve as a diary of sorts. Please, let me know if that isn't accurate.
Anyway, this evening I'm anxious about how easy it's been. Is this a trick? Is it possible I've used so long that I still have nic in my system? I've used the Smokey Mountain "fake dip" to be quit for 8-days and feel as if I've had only slight if any side-affects or withdraw symptoms. I feel like the SM fills my "trigger" cravings like after dinner, when I get out of bed, before a shower... All the times I wanted nic-bitch seems to have seamlessly been replaced with SM. I'm afraid that there is going to be some crash or melt down.
I did notice the 1st 3-4 days, I was short with my family members, but haven't really craved. While in Phoenix this week on business, I ninja dipped in the conference just like I would have with real dip only a short week ago. Ninja dipped in the airports and on airplane. Even out at a club after a few drinks, I went to the men's room and sneaked me a fat dip of the SM and on the way out noticed they had the little bathroom concierge guy and he had two cans of snuff. Honestly, my thought was that they were selling single dips in the bathroom in PHX. Seems likely in TX or AR but didn't see that one coming! LOL
Anyway after all that rambling, 1. I believe I'm feeling off or guilty for still having that "dirty little secret" using the SM. 2. I'm afraid that as much as I want to think I'm a bad ass and have simply made up my mind; that at some point there is going to be cravings and this "fog" everyone speaks of.
Is it the exercise keeping the fog at bay?
Thanks gang, I'm proud to be quit with you all today.