Hi. My name is Diesel2112. Well actually its Craig, my mom wasn't THAT stupid. Although I have always hated the name Craig.
Anyhoot, I hear you're having a tough go of late.
I've been there sista. It is tough stuff fo sho. (Read my intro if you have 3 hours of free time)
One thing you must remember is that you are doing the right thing. Doing the wrong thing by going back to Nicotine could literally kill you.
Two years ago my wife lost her uncle to small cell cancer caused directly by nicotine addiction.
He was 58 when he died, although the 2 years of his life stunk. In and out of chemo/radiation, lost all his hair, could barely eat, had zero energy...was just a sack of skin basically.
Prior to that the dude loved life. He loved the tigers, lions, and U of M football ( we are from Michigan). He was happily married and had a son who was 23 when he died. They were the perfect family. My kids loved Uncle Billy too. He treated them like gold.
Today...his wife is on a ton of anti depression meds, has lost their house and is bankrupt. Their son has become basically anti social and rarely comes to family functions anymore. My kids say "I wish Uncle Bill was gonna be there" every time we get together with that side of the family.
The dumb bastard chose nicotine for too long. Not only did it kill him, it left a path of destruction on those who loved him most. I guarantee if he had it to do over again he would have quit that shit.
YOU have that chance. You have already started down the road, the right road. Don't go back. I know the roads bumpy and sucky but we can help you walk it if you let us, and I promise it gets smoother.
58 years old.
Not sure how old you are, or that it matters. That's waaaay too young to die, especially when you are the one at the controls.
You can do this K. I KNOW you can. Don't be like Uncle Bill.
Grind this out and walk the road with us. Their are beautiful things to see. Things so beautiful you couldn't imagine them if I told you. The freedom you will feel is beyond words. Its rough in the beginning but so worth it.
Come back to us, please. It could literally be life or death.
Pm me ANY TIME you need help.
Diesel2112 aka Craig