Day 11.. i believe ive been counting wrong the whole time lol... anyway i havent had any craving tho it doesnt mean i still dont miss a big fatty in my lip. im not going to cave tho... id like to think im past the oral fixation part of the quit because i havent spat seeds nor smokey mountain since the weekend... day 11 and my quit is still going strong.
Stay close to your alternatives. Your addict brain may just try to trick you into thinking that you are beyond the oral fixation until you aren't.
You are doing great. Do focus so much on your day count, just focus daily on promising to quit and actually doing just that.
I am damn proud of the way you have jumped into your quit with two feet and very strong at that. Keep up the good work and beat that addict brain down one day at a time.
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Keep in mind that this addiction works in waves- you will have periods of feeling great and periods of feeling like shit. Be prepared for the downs and know that they will come.
Yes sir...
The 30's can be bad. Use any good days to recharge and prepare for the next rounds as you are not finished.
My "suck scale" looked something like this:
Day 1-3: bad fog, my brain didn't work at all. Very little sleep and couldn't take a dump to save my life. I wanted a dip every second of each day.
Day 4-10: Pretty much out of the fog but bad, bad cravings and headache every second of the day
Day 11-14: My cruise control days, I didn't think about dipping much and craves were few and far between. Sleeping good but too much.
Day 15-21 Starting to get my energy level back up. Craves about 2-4 per day and short. The first thing every morning, I started to get an empty and sick feeling in my stomach when I thought about not being able to dip. Started losing my temper easily.
Day 22-25 No real changes, cruising along but feeling a little depressed. I started learning how to hate my addiction and was really mad about it.
Day 26- 30: Wow, I was starting to gain a lot of weight. Weird how I replaced Cope with Ice Cream and cake. I don't even eat sweets but here I am 10 lbs heavier. I don't care, I'm not dipping and the craves are mild.
Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!
Day 39-60: The roller coaster days. Mod craves followed by no craves, bad temper and mild depression. A difficult time but I was not giving up at this point.
Day 61-73: The best days by far. Seldom think about dip, temper is way better, sleeping like a normal person and just feeling pretty darn good. I am stacking up these good days to recharge my batteries and prepare for the next round of fights".
Day 74- 85: Really good days. Strong cravings when I have too many drinks so I have been careful with drinking. Normal days are now 0-1 crave. My temper has been completely under control for 2 weeks now.
Day 86-99: Zero craves, zero dip dreams and temper under control. The strong craves when I drink are also gone. I am disgusted when I see someone dip. Proudly watching my group hit HOF one at a time; which is just how we quit, one day at a time. My guard is still held high as I know the fight is far from over.
Day 100-102: I am on a high as I have reached my first goal. My guard is held the highest it has ever been in because I will not disappoint all those who have helped me.
