Palpatine:
Day 3 - well it is day 3 technically but only 53 hours ago i had my last dip. I'll call it day 3.
Foggy, tired, craving, resisting, praying, reading, working, laughing, water. I'm doing this for me! I will quit today. I will quit again tomorrow. I will quit again Sunday. I will continue to quit each day after.
I'm finding that the nic was my "fix" and was kind of a sedative for me. I'm not planning the day around my fix because I'm not giving my day any fix. I want to...believe me I do. I'm not going to though. Past times when I "quit" it was more by accident. It wasn't even intentional. It was more due to being on vacation and no available place to get a tin. I didn't experience what I'm experiencing right now which is hard but also I think really meaningful.
Now I'm actually quitting and doing it intentionally and with that I'm actually feeling the true affects of getting the nic out because my brain has made the decision to quit rather than just "stumble" upon it by accident. I keep saying to myself, "patience...it's only been 53 hours...there is much more ahead but keep going one day at a time and when it's hard, one minute at a time". This will happen...I know that...but I'm ready to keep pushing forward because there are some really cool things already that I've noticed about my mind and body that has been sedated for so long and one of those things is how much I've been laughing at simple things...like really laughing hard!
I'm excited to not be sedated anymore and to be alive and laughing and enjoying my own life along with my families lives.
Day 3 - I quit!