So day 2 is almost over . I got back to my CHU after dinner and picked up one of my bags to get something. What did I find? A nice can of Grizzly. I stared at it for a good couple minutes, started to pack it, opened it up and stopped. I thought about my boy on the way, I thought about everyone on here calling me out, most of all I just got pissed and threw the fuckin can outside. Now I am enjoying a nice fat lip of hooch. For all you HOFers, how long until the cravings die down? I am sure I will always crave it when I see someone using it, but how long until I don't want one every hour? I was a tin a day guy, if I wasn't running or eating I had one in.
First thing you need to do, is get rid of that mindset. You are putting the nic bitch up on a pedestal, when you need to have your foot on her neck pinning her down. There is absolutely no reason to cut it that close. You find a can, you go dump it out. Then you find every other can you might possibly have anywhere you go, and you dump those. Empty, full, I don't give a shit. Throw them out. This early in your quit, the temptation does not need to be any stronger than it already is. Own your quit. Good job on getting Hooch, but you screwed up by packing and even thinking about that Grizzly. Never again, man. Never again.
JT nailed it. First, you need to go on an all-out search and destroy mission and round up every last tin you can find. Flip couch cushions and toss bunks if you have to. Take every one you find and dump its contents in the toilet (or latrine, in military parlance). Second, no trophy cans. Do not keep any cans lying around as a "symbol" of your strength or your resolve to quit. All they are is a fall-back plan to cave. If you want a trophy, order up a HoF coin from the site after you hit 100 days. They're 100% less cancerous. Third, it's time to get pissed. The nic rage is going to fuel that anger initially, but you need to make sure it's focused in the right direction: the nic bitch and your addict brain for letting her run the show for so damn long.
As for your question about craves, I'm 103 days in and I still get them daily. Nothing major, mostly just a popcorn fart of a crave that passes in a few minutes, but they're still there. For some guys, they say that the craves ended by the 30 day mark and other guys went a full year before the routine craves eventually subsided. That's why it isn't very useful to measure and compare your quit to anyone else's. You're going to have the craves you have until you don't. Either way, all of that stuff is something that happens at some point down the road. Don't worry about that. Focus on today. Focus on the two things you can absolutely do today (post roll keep your word) and worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
A few more things:
1) Start reaching out to your quit brothers and build up your support network. You are absolutely, positively, 100% going to need it and I can personally guarantee that it will save your ass more than once. Don't just post roll and then go it alone. You'll be missing out on the vast majority of what KTC is all about.
2) Start making a plan for the weekend now. A lot of young quits don't make it to the Monday after their first weekend nic-free, so start devising your plan now on how you are going to tackle your triggers.
3) Alcohol kills young quits, too. I'm not sure if you're a drinker, but if you are, seriously consider ditching the booze for the first 30 days or so. At least until you're back on solid footing again.
4) You can absolutely do this. Just take it one day at a time.
