In case anyone is interested...this is day 2 of ZERO nicotine. 15 days without the Bear, but only second without the gum.
Things got a little hairy yesterday, guess a bunch of guys thought I had bailed on my recovery/withdrawl and wasn't taking this seriously. To the contrary, I am so serious, that when I realized that NRT was so frowned upon I was ready, without a fight, to go back to day 1. I hope everybody realizes that now.
And man, the influx of PM's flooding my Inbox? How great is that? Real good bunch of guys on here.
I feel really good this time. I have tried so many times before, some half heartedly, some more serious, but have always failed.
I think the dentist and subsequent gum graft really sealed the deal for me. Sure, 10 years ago I had a sore in my mouth that when biopsied came back as some nicotine related pre-cancer and that didn't stop me. But I am tired of feeling like a jerkoff and going to the dentist. I am tired of my kids looking like me like I am a loser. I am tired of being the only coach on the field sneaking in a dip at practice. I am tired of buying coffee (which I dont drink) and spilling it out because I forgot a cup. Or shuffeling around the box in my car and winding up spitting in an advil bottle because that was the only thing I could find.
You guys know all the fucking stories. The medical scares. The sneaks. The lies.
Anyway glad to be here.
Glenn