Sportster's Intro-Becoming

[kana]

Day 5 was a good day. Adrenaline was flowing and I felt energy like I haven't since I started this. At my sons football game a friend asked how I was doing... I said I wanted to fuck someone up.. Figuratively of course... But that is how I felt. The nic bitch was out of my system and it was nice to feel. Last night was not good... I was anxious and couldn't sit still. I wondered the house until 1 am trying to calm down. Then swat was on tv, I got interested, fell asleep. Today I feel like I have lost a friend that was always there for me. Kept me calm and able to focus. A friend that had a sign of strength... The BEAR! I continually think of the bear... Want to pinch her and taste the mint... Pack it with my tongue... Spit.

Then I realize how fucked up that thinking is.... This nic bitch took over every facet of my life. Always on my mind and when not in my lip I was wanting her. Even now that she is gone she continues to plague my thoughts and desires. Her price was $5 per day but it was more than that... I was a liar because of her. What started out as occasional now was every waking hour. How could I let this happen?! She change who I was and who I wanted to be!

The road to freedom is not easy and I am hating the day I ever picked the nic bitch up. Now it is time to go our separate ways... But I do miss her... Just get out of my head and out of life. Let me be the person I am meant to be to myself, my kids, my family, my wife, my friends etc. leave me the fuck alone....

A person once said... A smart person learns by their mistakes, but a wise person learns from others mistakes. Last night I pleaded with my son to stay away from this shit... I hope he is wise.

Sportster4ever... Wanting the nic bitch gone forever!

we all used to feel the same way as you, but now we don't. dip is one of the furthest things from my mind now. This is the simple truth. In time you will feel the same way, and you'll have gone through a transformation that will change you to the core. Post everyday first thing. Exercise will help calm you down. I should know - I'd have to look it up but around the 20's for me I busted my weedwacker in half. just pounded the shit out of it on the ground, boy did that feel good.. then one of the elders told me to exercise. much cheaper than replacing my stuff. by the way in my signature is my quit video about the bear.
kill the friggin bear, i do every damn day... peace

[worktowin]

God I hate that bear. It is actually kind of funny, in a twisted sort of way ... Many of us that had a long affair with the bear have intros that read similarly to yours. The bear sings that siren song to you - loudly in both ears.

Here is the deal - you will learn to ignore the whispers. You will get over the rage. You'll sleep again. And, in time , you'll come to realize that the affection you wrote about was all a sack if bullshit. Get out a calculator.... I chewed a can of kodiak a day for 25 year (you are a year smarter than me.). 36k would buy you a pretty nice ride. Between us, we spit out over 70 k.

In time, you will get angry. In the meantime, reach out if I or any of us can help. This website can save your life. And the brotherhood and reliance on accountability bleeds over to other parts of your life as well. Congratulations on joining us.

[Evil_Won]

That was good and honest stuff. Stay strong. Oh, keep adding to this into and not creating a new one each time you want to document something related to your quit. Multiple threads just creates work for MODS; we hate that.

You have my #, use it when needed.

[wmcatty]

Hey Sports. Nice job of posting roll today. Glad you are here and have decided to join us in this nuthouse of quit. I sent you a PM with my telephone number. Call me and vent before you actually do kill someone or take it out on the family members...remember, they are the innocent ones that did not let themselves get addicted to the shit like you did, so take it easy on them. Now, quit fantasizing about how much you loved dip...that is the addict brain trying to convince you it is OK to use the shit, nothing more. Read all you can on the site and get involved, as it will make your quit much easier. Congratualations on taking your life back. Wayne

[Sportster4Ever]

Day 5 was a good day. Adrenaline was flowing and I felt energy like I haven't since I started this. At my sons football game a friend asked how I was doing... I said I wanted to fuck someone up.. Figuratively of course... But that is how I felt. The nic bitch was out of my system and it was nice to feel. Last night was not good... I was anxious and couldn't sit still. I wondered the house until 1 am trying to calm down. Then swat was on tv, I got interested, fell asleep. Today I feel like I have lost a friend that was always there for me. Kept me calm and able to focus. A friend that had a sign of strength... The BEAR! I continually think of the bear... Want to pinch her and taste the mint... Pack it with my tongue... Spit.

Then I realize how fucked up that thinking is.... This nic bitch took over every facet of my life. Always on my mind and when not in my lip I was wanting her. Even now that she is gone she continues to plague my thoughts and desires. Her price was $5 per day but it was more than that... I was a liar because of her. What started out as occasional now was every waking hour. How could I let this happen?! She change who I was and who I wanted to be!

The road to freedom is not easy and I am hating the day I ever picked the nic bitch up. Now it is time to go our separate ways... But I do miss her... Just get out of my head and out of life. Let me be the person I am meant to be to myself, my kids, my family, my wife, my friends etc. leave me the fuck alone....

A person once said... A smart person learns by their mistakes, but a wise person learns from others mistakes. Last night I pleaded with my son to stay away from this shit... I hope he is wise.

Sportster4ever... Wanting the nic bitch gone forever!

[Mike from AB]

Glad you made it into chat tonight, it has definitely saved me several times. 

Congrats on posting day 1, it really does get better.

Quit for today, and above all else quit for YOU.  Be selfish about it, it is ok.

It does get better.

PM me if you need anything, I gave you my number in chat, not sure if you got it.  If you did use it anytime.

I have 2 supporters in my phone... Send an email with yours and I will add it in... 24 hrs... That is my goal

Welcome Sportster, 24hr is a great goal! Just 24 hours. YOu got this. Tomorrow can take care of itself, but if you post roll  promise for today, that's all you have to do. You got this.

[srans]

Today is my first day of being free! I have tried many times before but this is my first time using a support group and I am psyched! I have chewed for 24 years kodak can a day. I am sick of this shit and feeling controlled... I want my freedom. Right now I am just pissed at the asshole who introduced me but I know it is up to me to take control and I know I can do it. Whoever started this you ROCK

Man, that is exactly where I was mentally when I quit. Just freakin done. I was a slave for somewhere around 20 years. You can do this. Better days are coming, sir.

Read my HOF speech linked in my signature. You're going at it the same way I did. Focus that anger and use it as a tool. The nicotine slingers tried to kill us for many years. Do not forget that.

Excellent,, posting roll and keeping that mind set will keep you quit. Great job. One day at a time and you can take back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it.

[Radman]

Today is my first day of being free! I have tried many times before but this is my first time using a support group and I am psyched! I have chewed for 24 years kodak can a day. I am sick of this shit and feeling controlled... I want my freedom. Right now I am just pissed at the asshole who introduced me but I know it is up to me to take control and I know I can do it. Whoever started this you ROCK

Man, that is exactly where I was mentally when I quit. Just freakin done. I was a slave for somewhere around 20 years. You can do this. Better days are coming, sir.

Read my HOF speech linked in my signature. You're going at it the same way I did. Focus that anger and use it as a tool. The nicotine slingers tried to kill us for many years. Do not forget that.

[Runner]

Today is my first day of being free! I have tried many times before but this is my first time using a support group and I am psyched! I have chewed for 24 years kodak can a day. I am sick of this shit and feeling controlled... I want my freedom. Right now I am just pissed at the asshole who introduced me but I know it is up to me to take control and I know I can do it. Whoever started this you ROCK

Great job with your quit. Read everything that you can. post every day. And get some numbers that you can contact for support. I dipped for 40 years and this site got me nic free and can do the same for you.

Good luck if you need any support numbers pm me and I would be happy to send you mine.

[Sportster4Ever]

Glad you made it into chat tonight, it has definitely saved me several times.

Congrats on posting day 1, it really does get better.

Quit for today, and above all else quit for YOU. Be selfish about it, it is ok.

It does get better.

PM me if you need anything, I gave you my number in chat, not sure if you got it. If you did use it anytime.

I have 2 supporters in my phone... Send an email with yours and I will add it in... 24 hrs... That is my goal

[jbradley]

Glad you made it into chat tonight, it has definitely saved me several times.

Congrats on posting day 1, it really does get better.

Quit for today, and above all else quit for YOU. Be selfish about it, it is ok.

It does get better.

PM me if you need anything, I gave you my number in chat, not sure if you got it. If you did use it anytime.

[Sportster4Ever]

Today is my first day of being free! I have tried many times before but this is my first time using a support group and I am psyched! I have chewed for 24 years kodak can a day. I am sick of this shit and feeling controlled... I want my freedom. Right now I am just pissed at the asshole who introduced me but I know it is up to me to take control and I know I can do it. Whoever started this you ROCK