Until you have a plan and quit abusing yourself you word is no good here!!!!! 'finger point'
There is the nugget Buckshooter. Had this same conversation with Gooch. I am convinced that all cavers have (at least) one thing in common - THEY HAVE NO PLAN.
I drink like a damn fish on occasion. I can be a binge drinker from time to time. Not a problem for me since I also go weeks without a sniff of alcohol but that is a different point. Point is WHAT WILL YOU DO DIFFERENTLY NEXT TIME YOU GET HAMMERED?
My plan was to text a quit brother. If that didn't work, I would make a phone call and talk it out. 9 times out of 10, by the time the text messages were flying, I was laughing my ass off and no longer wanted a chew. That 10th time was an actual call asking someone for their permission for me to cave. Since I didn't get it, I would then be "talked down". Worked EVERY DAMN TIME.
Surprisingly, it still works when you get past 100 days because the nic bitch won't be done with you after you hit the hall.
GET A PLAN AND STICK TO IT. At that point, it is not "I will man up" or "it is mind over matter" or "I'm stronger this time". It is WHEN this happens.... I will do THIS..... and you support system kicks in talking you down. Damn dude - read some HOF speeches - almost every one of them talks about support and quit brothers. There really is no excuse.