Introduction to Addiction

[JPAnthony]

Day 401 is even sweeter!

Really like to see that you're still engaged with KTC; 400 days is one hell of an accomplishment. Congrats.

[pab1964]

My man! Keep stacking them and smell the sweet revenge! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!

[mat849]

Day 401 is even sweeter!

[Done4Me]

Congrats on 400 days Mat!

[mat849]

Thanks gentlemen. This is definitely a milestone where I feel like I have accomplished something. Obviously it can only be done odaat, but now I feel like a quitter. Thanks for all the support and help along the way! Wouldn't be here without it.

[pab1964]

Matt...Congratulation on 1 year of Quit......thanks for all the support over my last 249 days....i quit with you everyday!

Congratulations Matt, obviously what you're doing is working, don't change a thing and keep paying it forward! Quit on my brother!

[beast42a]

Matt...Congratulation on 1 year of Quit......thanks for all the support over my last 249 days....i quit with you everyday!

[THansen2413]

Matt - Congrats on a full year quit! That was the milestone that meant the most to me. Your new habit is quitting and you're damn good at it. Keep on doing what you do so well here. An as always, I appreciate your support. Keep on rocking it.

Nice full circle bro!

[Done4Me]

Matt - Congrats on a full year quit! That was the milestone that meant the most to me.  Your new habit is quitting and you're damn good at it. Keep on doing what you do so well here. An as always, I appreciate your support. Keep on rocking it.

[mat849]

Fuck there's a lot of dust in here! Forgot to post up in here for the last 50 days.

So, where to start? Today is 115. HOF day was 11/30, the Saturday after thanksgiving. Feels good to be quit, just like it felt good to be quit days 30-100. That first 30 was a real foggy fucking mess to think back on, and there have been many struggles since.

So now I will buckle up each morning and drive my nic free ass through life ODAAT. I know I read in another intro the comparison of posting roll to putting on your seat belt before every drive. I'd like to take the driving metaphor a step further. I feel like KTC has been like a defensive driving course for nic free life.

I spent the first 100 days just learning how to avoid all the hazards of the road. Now, after 100, I am slowly learning to enjoy the drive. I can look around and enjoy the view. I have the confidence now to drive longer distances and to new locations.

Thanks to the first 100 of KTC drivers ed I know to always think safety first. Hands on the wheel, I'm always in control (not the bitch). Check my mirrors (never know where that bitch might try to sneak up on you). Always have a plan, and most importantly, always buckle up (post roll first thing in the morning) before you start driving.

[Candoit]

So, new experience, for me anyway. I had a quit dream.

Don't remember too many details but it was all about helping my quit brothers here on KTC, and preaching quit to my friends in the real world. Woke up this morning feeling pretty bad ass. Much better feeling than waking up after a dip/cave dream.

Looking forward to many more mornings waking up feeling like a bad ass.

There is the key, Matt. Realizing on your own, that you are a Bad Ass Quitter. You are starting to figure out who you are as an adult with out the controlling tranny nic bitch.

[Thumblewort]

54 days is bad ass. Keep posting in your intro, and read it on HoF day, it's a blast!

[FMBM707]

So, new experience, for me anyway. I had a quit dream.

Don't remember too many details but it was all about helping my quit brothers here on KTC, and preaching quit to my friends in the real world. Woke up this morning feeling pretty bad ass. Much better feeling than waking up after a dip/cave dream.

Looking forward to many more mornings waking up feeling like a bad ass.

Keep up the good work Mat849! Keep helping others. Keep working on your quit ODAAT and build that foundation. We can't change who we are overnight but ODAAT we can keep working towards being that better person. Quit with you! Quit on.

[mat849]

So, new experience, for me anyway. I had a quit dream.

Don't remember too many details but it was all about helping my quit brothers here on KTC, and preaching quit to my friends in the real world. Woke up this morning feeling pretty bad ass. Much better feeling than waking up after a dip/cave dream.

Looking forward to many more mornings waking up feeling like a bad ass.

[mat849]

Time for an update, with a focus on being less long winded. Day 52, a little over half way to the starting blocks of HOF. Every day I feel more freedom, and though I still have to deal with the every day shit that is life, I no longer feel like I am on a nightmare roller coaster.

In addition to feeling more stable in my, quit I am attempting to get my shit together in life in general. Yesterday I met with a therapist that specializes in addiction. Not gonna change anything about my approach to killing the nicotine bitch, KTC works, but I needed to talk to someone about how I interact with the world. I tend to jump from obsession to obsession and become completely consumed by them for some undetermined amount of time. I won't go into further detail, but my work and family life are being effected by my actions and this must and will stop.

So now I have work to do to make myself a better man. If I am going to extend my life by kicking nic in the crotch edd, I am going to do everything in my power to make it a better life for me and for my family.

Finally let's look at the cause of my minor mental melt down back on 09/20. I was in bad place mentally and emotionally and struggling with my quit along with many other personal dramas. Overreaction and self doubt were the order of the day. In the end I did end up getting the promotion that I was in for, and I start my new position tomorrow.

Let's wrap this up. I will KEEP POSTING UP +1 EDD. I will FEED THE GOOD WOLF EDD. I will QLF WITH ANYONE WHO IS HERE TO DO THE SAME EDD!