I've finally had some time to post an update to my intro. I'm 129 days in now and I'm so excited with the progress I've made to this point. Ive signed on to post for 200 days, but I don't really plan to stop posting ever.
A little about my quit journey this far. For whatever reason I decided to quit during one of the most stressful times of my life. I'm a partner in my company, so I never get to just leave work at work. It's my ass if deadlines aren't reached or production is low. Believe me, managing 35 employees can be interesting to say the least. And about a third of the people i work the closest with chew, so I'm around it constantly. I quit on July 22nd. Mid July to mid November is the busiest time of the year for us. During those months, I typically work around 65 hours per week. On August 2nd my second child was born a little girl. In October, my grandmother died. On top of that you add the day to day bullshit - house repairs, sick kids, the daily grind. There were many times I didn't know if I would last. But I haven't caved. And I never used and lied - which I find disgusting by the way. These are the things that make me the proudest.
The reason that I'm writing this is trifold. 1, no matter what kind of bullshit is going on you have to remember that it's just for today. Get through today, you get to post roll again tomorrow, and then it's just for today again. Pretty soon all those just for todays start to stack up. One day at a time. It's the most important part.
2nd, I was a shitty quit brother. I posted the bare minimum, I wasn't that involved. I'm working on making up for that now. I want to apologize to everyone that posted on here or messaged me when I hit the HOF. I should have been more gracious and reached out. All I can do now is try harder in the future.
Last but not least, using the excuse that stress made you cave is bullshit. You caved because you wanted to. You caved because it was easier than digging deep and not caving. And I'm not trying to be a martyr here. There are plenty of people on here that are going through some rough shit but are not caving. Things that make my first 100 days look like the easy path. So if you cave it's because you are a pussy and you wanted to. Don't cave. It's just for today. It's really that simple.
I just want to end this little soliloquy by saying thanks. Thanks to everyone that's been there for me to lean on the last 129 days.