Worst night of sleep I've had in years. Lots of vivid dreams about chewing and other crap as well. Got on this site in middle of the night and was reading articles posted about cancer and now I'm just kinda depressed. Thinking how that could already be me but it hasn't shown up yet. Shitty day so far. But I posted roll and promise not to cave today.
Did you see Shawshank Redemption? Remember when Andy crawls through the pipe? You'll be fine. Keep at it.
Embrace the fact that your going to feel shitty until you don't. You can endure anything as long as you know it is temporary, this shit is temporary. I promise, keep grinding.
The sleep, headaches, depression, fear, shame, regret etc are all normal your on the right track, just keep putting one foot in front of the other- you got this.
sM