That's been my mantra for the past 18 years. First, it was with the smoking thing and now dip has become my killer of choice. To top it all off, the tobacco companies come out with "snus" and really turn my world upside down. I have lied to my wife, my family and most of all to myself. I am here because I want to be here. I am here because there is a longing inside of me that is ready to quit this horrible addiction! After 18 years of being a slave, it is time to be free. But I am scared and addicted. I know it will be the hardest thing I have ever faced in my life and that is what scares me the most. So tomorrow morning when I come back on this site, roll call will be my first objective. No more, its done and each day will be a new day to enjoy knowing that I don't have to be chained to something that has held such a grip on my life for so long.
If you want to see a success story, then jump on board and help a brother out. I am going to need all the help this site can give me. Now its time to let my wife know that the lies about my nicotine addiction stop now. No more hiding in the dark. Its time to live in the light until the day I die................
