On day 5

[Hops]

Introduction:

Everyone calls me "hops." A little background: I've had a secret mistress for the last 15 years. Got up to over a can a day. One can hidden in the truck, one hidden at work, one hidden in my workshop. I kept it a secret all those years (or so I keep telling myself; I'm sure others knew.) How did I get here?

I've "quit" before. Usually about a week. Maybe longer. Doesn't matter. -I always end up right back on the sauce. This time I have to stay quit. For my kids and my wife; I've got to stay off. Right now I'm on day 5 of being clean - but I'm weak. I could go out right now and get a can. Easily.

I've read a bunch of articles on the site already. I understand the fog. I'm in it. Getting betterÃ,… but still in a daze. I can't even type very well, so I'm logging out.

Thanks for listening.
Hops