Hi guys, I thought I'd post a little bit more of an intro. I've been looking to really examine my history with Dip so I can make finally quit this shit. I thought I'd take a moment and write out that history.
Sometime in the fall of 2005, when I was 18 and a freshman in college, I had my first dip. A guy who was a friend of mine gave me a pinch while we were partying, and I pretty much immediately felt like shit. Not sure exactly what happened, but I remember almost being sick in some dorm bathroom.
Maybe a month later I had my first "real" dip in the hallway - and loved, LOVED, it. Then, slowly started to build up how much I dipped and decided to stop after our ski trip in January of 2006. I actually did - for two and a half months. I was going through some shit that quarter, and started up again and dipped more or less regularly (though I think still without a full-fledged addiction for a few months) through the summer. Then, I started my LONG history of starting and stopping this addiction. Here is the timeline, best I can figure:
-April-September 2006. Dipped pretty consistently.
-September October: an "off" period.
-November-January: Dipped
2007
-February: "off" period
-March-April: dipped
-May and June: off period
-June: had a week where I dipped about five times
-June-October: off period
-October-December: dipped
2008
-January: off period
-Feb/March: dipped
-April - big quit. Stayed quit until Thanksgiving day. Wow - look what I gave thanks for. FUcking moron.
-Thanksgiving - Mid-Jan: dipped
2009
-Mid-Jan: Quit. Stayed Quit all the way until September, had a couple dips (maybe 5 over three days or something) and stopped again. Stopped all the way until June 2010.
2010:
Starting in June, I dipped on and off all summer, and then consistently starting in the fall.
2011:
I dipped all the way until March 2011. Then, took two months off. Then, starting dipping again in May. Kept dipping pretty regularly. Took a month off in September and in November. But, dipped all october and December.
2012:
Quit in January. Stayed quit until June. Started again in June and dipped until March 2013.
2013:
Was stopped from March 2013 until September 2015 in NYC. Then, dipped from September until December. I took all of december off
2014:
January, and I was dipping again! Dipped from January 2014 all the way until September 17. I did a big quit push on September 17 2014, and was stopped all the way until early april 2015. Then, I started again.
Now, My Quit was on June 7. That is my quit date. As far as I can reckon, since fall of 2005, I've "quit" about a dozen times. I've ALWAYS wanted this shit out of me, and to be free. However, as y'all know, it's a fucking HELL of a drug.
Anyway - I'm done. No More. I'll quit everyday for the rest of my life. I will NOT have just one. Not again. I've come to far.
Has anybody else had experience quitting SO MANY TIMES? Or am I alone? What did you to to make your last quit stick - and run the distance? Any help is appreciated!
