Mthomastherapy

[Bruce]

Day 251

It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.

March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)

Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!

Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!

I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.

If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.

Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.

Quit first and foremost!

Mthomas, I love you man, full homo

[jaginvest]

Day 251

It has been a while.  I am still quit and loving it!  For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you. 

March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat.  I obliged.  My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back.  I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food.  (I tripled my nicotine use.) 

Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off.  From March until September....I gained 30 LBS! 

Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort.  Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT! 

I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit.  Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March.  I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine.  Today that same man is free from its addictive chains.  Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve.  I set my course because I am free.  I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.   

If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit.  There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have.  Control your addiction to nicotine first.  Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish. 

Quitting is hard, damn hard.  When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it. 

Quit first and foremost!

just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....

Bravo, Brother....QLAFM

[SirDerek]

Day 251

It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.

March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)

Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!

Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!

I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.

If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.

Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.

Quit first and foremost!

just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....

[Mthomas3824]

Day 251

It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.

March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)

Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!

Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!

I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.

If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.

Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.

Quit first and foremost!

[Scowick65]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and  Mrs. Thomas. 
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life. 

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about? 

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC.  I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave.  Time to live my life outside of the site. 

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers. 

Mthomas: Not true.  I just need to leave the hospital.  When I post daily, I think about tobacco.  I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine.  KTC makes me think about tobacco. 

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas:  You don't see my point? 

Mrs Thomas:  Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?"  You have been quit for 200 days.  Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it. 

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now. 

Mrs Thomas:  What is marriage?  It is a commitment to each other.  I'm here for you and you are here for me.  We both make mistakes but usually at different times.  I have always been here for you and you for me.  KTC is a promise.  Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them.  If I were you, just keep positing roll.  If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you.  Right? 

Mthomas:  Right.  You know your stuff. 

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict.  Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily.  Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it. 

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me.  I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably.  There is no honor in a cave.  No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit. 

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.     I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind.  Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit.  To my KTC brotherhood.  You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction.  I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you.  I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.

I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.

I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.

p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.

Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.

Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!

Things tend to get somewhat better after you hit the second floor but its very wise to just keep on keeping on by that I mean posting roll! We are all just a bunch of addicts that came together to get quit and stay that way, now I know if I were to stop posting roll my life would get way to comfortable and that sneaky nic bitch would surely try to sneak her shitty hooks back into me and ......BULLSHIT NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!
....why.....

I post roll everyday and want to keep it that way!

Keep the quit strong brother and never let the intensity of quit leave your mind cause once that happens the shitty nic bitch will come a whispering and try to lure you back!

:)

[Grizzly25]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and  Mrs. Thomas. 
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life. 

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about? 

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC.  I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave.  Time to live my life outside of the site. 

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers. 

Mthomas: Not true.  I just need to leave the hospital.  When I post daily, I think about tobacco.  I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine.  KTC makes me think about tobacco. 

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas:  You don't see my point? 

Mrs Thomas:  Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?"  You have been quit for 200 days.  Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it. 

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now. 

Mrs Thomas:  What is marriage?  It is a commitment to each other.  I'm here for you and you are here for me.  We both make mistakes but usually at different times.  I have always been here for you and you for me.  KTC is a promise.  Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them.  If I were you, just keep positing roll.  If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you.  Right? 

Mthomas:  Right.  You know your stuff. 

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict.  Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily.  Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it. 

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me.  I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably.  There is no honor in a cave.  No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit. 

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.     I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind.  Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit.  To my KTC brotherhood.  You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction.  I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you.  I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.

I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.

I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.

p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.

Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.

Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!

Things tend to get somewhat better after you hit the second floor but its very wise to just keep on keeping on by that I mean posting roll! We are all just a bunch of addicts that came together to get quit and stay that way, now I know if I were to stop posting roll my life would get way to comfortable and that sneaky nic bitch would surely try to sneak her shitty hooks back into me and ......BULLSHIT NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!
....why.....

I post roll everyday and want to keep it that way!

Keep the quit strong brother and never let the intensity of quit leave your mind cause once that happens the shitty nic bitch will come a whispering and try to lure you back!

[Mthomas3824]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and  Mrs. Thomas. 
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life. 

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about? 

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC.  I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave.  Time to live my life outside of the site. 

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers. 

Mthomas: Not true.  I just need to leave the hospital.  When I post daily, I think about tobacco.  I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine.  KTC makes me think about tobacco. 

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas:  You don't see my point? 

Mrs Thomas:  Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?"  You have been quit for 200 days.  Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it. 

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now. 

Mrs Thomas:  What is marriage?  It is a commitment to each other.  I'm here for you and you are here for me.  We both make mistakes but usually at different times.  I have always been here for you and you for me.  KTC is a promise.  Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them.  If I were you, just keep positing roll.  If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you.  Right? 

Mthomas:  Right.  You know your stuff. 

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict.  Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily.  Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it. 

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me.  I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably.  There is no honor in a cave.  No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit. 

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.     I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind.  Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit.  To my KTC brotherhood.  You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction.  I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you.  I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.

I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.

I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.

p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.

Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.

Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!

[Coach Steve]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and  Mrs. Thomas. 
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life. 

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about? 

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC.  I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave.  Time to live my life outside of the site. 

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers. 

Mthomas: Not true.  I just need to leave the hospital.  When I post daily, I think about tobacco.  I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine.  KTC makes me think about tobacco. 

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas:  You don't see my point? 

Mrs Thomas:  Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?"  You have been quit for 200 days.  Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it. 

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now. 

Mrs Thomas:  What is marriage?  It is a commitment to each other.  I'm here for you and you are here for me.  We both make mistakes but usually at different times.  I have always been here for you and you for me.  KTC is a promise.  Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them.  If I were you, just keep positing roll.  If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you.  Right? 

Mthomas:  Right.  You know your stuff. 

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict.  Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily.  Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it. 

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me.  I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably.  There is no honor in a cave.  No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit. 

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.     I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind.  Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit.  To my KTC brotherhood.  You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction.  I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you.  I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.

I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.

I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.

p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.

[Mthomas3824]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and  Mrs. Thomas. 
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life. 

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about? 

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC.  I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave.  Time to live my life outside of the site. 

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers. 

Mthomas: Not true.  I just need to leave the hospital.  When I post daily, I think about tobacco.  I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine.  KTC makes me think about tobacco. 

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas:  You don't see my point? 

Mrs Thomas:  Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?"  You have been quit for 200 days.  Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it. 

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now. 

Mrs Thomas:  What is marriage?  It is a commitment to each other.  I'm here for you and you are here for me.  We both make mistakes but usually at different times.  I have always been here for you and you for me.  KTC is a promise.  Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them.  If I were you, just keep positing roll.  If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you.  Right? 

Mthomas:  Right.  You know your stuff. 

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict.  Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily.  Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it. 

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me.  I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably.  There is no honor in a cave.  No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit. 

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.    I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind.  Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit.  To my KTC brotherhood.  You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction.  I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you.  I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.

[Tsmith17]

Day 203

The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.

Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?

Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.

Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.

Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.

Mrs Thomas: Hmm

Mthomas: You don't see my point?

Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.

Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.

Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?

Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.

Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.

So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.

I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom

Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!

Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.

[Mthomas3824]

I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver!  I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit.  I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was.  Btdogboy I let ya down brother!

Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch.  I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me.  BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you! 

There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything!  Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF! 
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!

Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.

Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit.  I didn't and look at me

Coachmorris

Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....

Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.

You've got this...own it...

Hey Mark,

Thought I would share a conversation that was floating around in January right now. Thought it was fitting. Stay quit!!! Never again, for any reason!!

Thanks for sharing. I must learn from others. I never want to post a day one again. Post roll, keep your word and repeat. Simple, boring but I brush my teeth when I wake up in the morning.

It doesn't give me a woody but I know its good for me. Posting roll. Simple. Just do it!

I got it. The back door in my head is now closed. Little nicky is a bitch and not welcome to sneak into my brain anymore. If she tries, I will kill her.

[dr_jones_25]

I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver!  I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit.  I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was.  Btdogboy I let ya down brother!

Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch.  I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me.  BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you! 

There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything!  Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF! 
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!

Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.

Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit.  I didn't and look at me

Coachmorris

Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....

Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.

You've got this...own it...

Hey Mark,

Thought I would share a conversation that was floating around in January right now. Thought it was fitting. Stay quit!!! Never again, for any reason!!

[dr_jones_25]

bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll.  YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY!  'bang head'

That's some good stuff. Quit for today Friends.

I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver!  I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit.  I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was.  Btdogboy I let ya down brother!

Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch.  I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me.  BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you! 

There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything!  Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF! 
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!

Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.

Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit.  I didn't and look at me

Coachmorris

Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....

Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.

You've got this...own it...

[Mthomas3824]

bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll. YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY! 'bang head'

That's some good stuff. Quit for today Friends.

[30isEnuff]

bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll. YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY! 'bang head'