Mthomastherapy

[LionHeartedGirl]

Double post

[LionHeartedGirl]

Day 470

I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.

My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????

I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.

Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.

Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.

In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.

Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.

In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.

Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?

Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.

Click for a moment of reflection

You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.

Today, I'll abide with you.

[cbird65]

Day 470

I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.

My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????

I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.

Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.

Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.

In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.

Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.

In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.

Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?

Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.

Click for a moment of reflection

'clap'

kind of like that every damn day thing

I find peace at no longer battling the 'fear of quitting' but directing the fight 'point blank at the enemy' and you are 100% correct about the frustration when a KTC member,after tasting the freedom, returns as a caver.

[kkljinc]

Day 470

I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.

My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????

I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.

Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.

Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.

In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.

Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.

In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.

Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?

Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.

Click for a moment of reflection

That is solid..Some serious quit wisdom in here today. Thanks

[Mthomas3824]

Day 470

I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.

My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????

I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.

Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.

Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.

In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.

Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.

In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.

Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?

Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.

Click for a moment of reflection

[Mthomas3824]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable.  I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card. 

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off. 

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom. 

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case. 

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value.  No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family. 

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless.  Fight today!

Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!

:)

what he said ^^^^ Awesome!

Thanks, this was a must insert for me to put in the journal. For some reason, when the seduction begins, it is easy for me to forget and I am slow to remember how good and great it feels to be a man of your word.

I am trying to keep the tools sharp and this was a moment where I sharpened my blades and am ready to protect my freedom. We are quit so now we all must secure our freedom.

Thanks to all of you for watching my back and warning me when it seems like I get lost. If it wasn't for you addicts, I would still be using...even if I wanted to quit. You all turned the power on my side and she is beatable. Actually a predictable foe is always beatable because the strategy never has to change.

[30isEnuff]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable.  I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card. 

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off. 

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom. 

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case. 

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value.  No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family. 

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless.  Fight today!

Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!

:)

what he said ^^^^ Awesome!

[Scowick65]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable.  I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card. 

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off. 

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom. 

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case. 

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value.  No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family. 

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless.  Fight today!

Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!

:)

[eric71]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable.  I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card. 

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off. 

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom. 

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case. 

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value.  No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family. 

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless.  Fight today!

Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!

[LionHeartedGirl]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!

Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.

[Mthomas3824]

Day 467

Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.

The front of the card said, "Checklist"

Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.

Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"

With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.

I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.

That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.

Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!

[30isEnuff]

Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free. 

"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean.  I mean plumb, mad-dog mean.  'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.

That's just the way it is."

Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.

I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick!  I am now on track to be healthy and wise.

I'm proud to be a quitter with you as well Mark! Glad to see you active in here again as your journey can easily inspire new and veteran quitters alike.

I quit with You Mark and You too Eric.
you guys inspire! :)
Quit on! 'bang head'
ODAAT and NAFAR

[eric71]

Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free.

"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean. I mean plumb, mad-dog mean. 'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.

That's just the way it is."

Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.

I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick! I am now on track to be healthy and wise.

I'm proud to be a quitter with you as well Mark! Glad to see you active in here again as your journey can easily inspire new and veteran quitters alike.

[Mthomas3824]

Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free.

"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean. I mean plumb, mad-dog mean. 'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.

That's just the way it is."

Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.

I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick! I am now on track to be healthy and wise.

[Mthomas3824]

Today is 450 days in a row that I quit

If you are new in this battle, do the plan, build support and never, never surrender to nicotine today. When it's today, fight no worries about tomorrow just today.

Day after day, it adds up. The burden of my quit is a piece of cake today. Keep fighting and keep quitting. You will prefer a quit life!!!