My quit didnÂ’t last because I allowed my flesh to supersede my spiritual beliefs. I relied on my own will to make it happen instead of the One who can actually do the changing. Smoking or dipping for 22 years or so and then expecting to quit cold turkey takes a huge amount of guts and determination. I have seen where many on this site have been successful and many who were not. I am a serial caver and donÂ’t even know why I came back here, except that it is the only place that I have been where I was able to quit for any length of time. Some of you here will not understand my resolve lies in my faith in Jesus Christ. Someone just said that He didnÂ’t put the nic in my mouth and that is correct. I am taking full responsibility and accountability this time for my actions, but I am not relying on my own will to do this. Jesus said that He would be a comforter and a help in times of need and I am placing my trust in Him alone to overcome this addiction.
My lack of accountability to everyone on this site who has not caved or given in makes me an untrustworthy person and I understand what comes with that. My resolve to quit was not where it needed to be in the past and I am going to utilize all the tools on this site and my support network at home, including my wife and daughters, who were not a big part in the past. Despite my past failures, there is no doubt in my mind that this will be the last explanation that I will have to make on why I didnÂ’t hold up my part of the deal.
You know Otter, if it were up to me, you would be banned. You have no integrity, no honor, no self-respect and you are a whining little girl. Now you are bringing the Lord into it. God gave you everything you needed to quit. He isn't quitting for you..you do the work. If you think that He's going to magically change you, then you are dead wrong again and you have already laid the foundation for the next excuse as to why you caved.
I really don't understand how you are planning on utilizing your wife and daughters in your quit. They have absolutely nothing to do with your quit and can't do anything to help you. You had all the tools right here. You had the encouragement, the support, everything and you pissed it away, not just once, but multiple times. It's a real simple formula here, just like it is with Christianity. You give your word and you keep your word. You can't do either of those things. Go away. Go far away. You are poison to everyone here that is quit and the new quitters that are quit.
You have a mindset that you can just keep "trying." That mindset is 100% lethal. We have no room for that. You are asking everyone on here to say it's ok to cave and you'll be welcomed back. NO WAY!!!! A little leaven leavens the whole lump. That's Galatians 5:9. That's what you are. Poison to the whole group of quitters. If you actually got this, you wouldn't have come back to this site. It's completely selfish of you. You would take your shit show to some other site where they'll coddle balls with you and say things like "it's ok, you just have to keep trying." I'm not ever going to say that to you or anyone else. That isn't graceless. That is honor and truth. To say that would be to say to that addict in me, that I could go ahead an take one dip and it'll be ok because everyone might be a little mad but they'll take me back and I can try again. That mindset is death. You want to live like that, go ahead, but don't bring that in here.
In here, we are fostering life. Living life and living it with integrity, honor and respect. It starts with not being a liar. Go post somewhere else and learn integrity. Take what you've learned here and go somewhere else and help some quitters elsewhere. You won't get support from me here.
As EC says - you can fuck off. And if you don't see how that statement is helpful to you, then you really don't get it.
