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wildirish317

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FLLipOut

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Quote from: RubyredSo I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.
Good to hear the Fog finally passed and gave you some relief.
Here's to pain free days ahead!
Like Cav said, don't be surprised or down if the fog returns ever, sometimes those funks sneak up on us.
You've got this Ruby - no matter what life throws at you now. I just know it. Just take it all one day at a time! One day you will wake up and so much of the struggle will be in the rear view mirror. And freedom is so good.

Proud to quit with you EDD.

FLLIP
Just one and you will be back to where you started, and where you started was desperately wishing you were where you are now.
"The best way out is always through." - Robert Frost
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ChickDip

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Quote from: RubyredSo I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.
Good to hear the Fog finally passed and gave you some relief.
Here's to pain free days ahead!
Like Cav said, don't be surprised or down if the fog returns ever, sometimes those funks sneak up on us.
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CavMan83

Quote from: RubyredSo I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.

Rubyred

So I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.

Rubyred

Irritable as funk today didn't get much sleep. Wondering if sleep is interfering with my mood or it's the pain in my mouth that has been never ending since my quit. Feel like I'm missing out on little things with my kids.

JMckay

Quote from: RubyredToday is day 63. Woke up in a great mood. Felt like I had a ton of energy and was really happy. Very different feeling to my low feeling yesterday. I still keep playing with my mouth though I never feel 100% with that yet. I'm hoping in may after more work done and my official cleaning then things will start looking up. But today has been good I love this spring weather. Opening the windows and cleaning the house feel great. Haven't thought about having a dip all day. Today is good I'll take it.
Hey there i had anxiety issues that i had somewhat learned to control before i quit. Extreme anxiety was my biggest fear when i started this quit and because of my past struggles with it. I feel like the more you focus on it and fear it the more strength you give it. Belly breathing and all sorts of meditations have helped me. My hope is at some point not having the nic in the system will. Make anxiety better on it own.

Rubyred

Today is day 63. Woke up in a great mood. Felt like I had a ton of energy and was really happy. Very different feeling to my low feeling yesterday. I still keep playing with my mouth though I never feel 100% with that yet. I'm hoping in may after more work done and my official cleaning then things will start looking up. But today has been good I love this spring weather. Opening the windows and cleaning the house feel great. Haven't thought about having a dip all day. Today is good I'll take it.

PMILS

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Quote from: RubyredDay 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.
I keep getting hot flashes and sweating this is so weird
Drink some water, go for a walk. You got this. Power through, we got your back
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Quote from: RubyredDay 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.
I keep getting hot flashes and sweating this is so weird

Rubyred

Day 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.

Rubyred

Day 61... yesterday on day 60 I went back to the dentist for a tooth annoying me. Looks like I have a cavity with a small crack in the tooth. I don't think I have enjoyed a pain free quit yet. I'm pissed and sad and annoyed all at the same time. I'm wondering what will be next. I actually can't wait to have a cleaning this month so I can see what is going on with the rest of my teeth. But I looked at the positive and figured at least it's not another root canal, at least not today. I wait a week and he will fix that tooth instead of putting on two crowns. I'm getting an irm done.

Today one of my kids woke up not feeling so great. He's got anxiety as well. He seems better now but he's like me with anxiety. He's got a tummy like me and if I eat wrong things or get anxiety I'm done for the day. It felt good focusing on him rather than me this morning. I used to have to tell him to hang on and put a dip in before being their for him. I would have to control my own anxiety with nic before helping others. Now it feels good to be their for him with out having to put crap in my mouth. To deal with stress and other things that give me anxiety I'm going to treat myself with something. I have been neglecting things that give me pleasure and need to give myself something to look forward to. Like a bath or a new pair of shoes. I need me time. I need to heal. I need my mouth to heal and body to heal from stupid nic.

I'm so happy that I quit dip and all forms of nicotine. If I didn't quit I would have more problems and wouldn't be brave enough to go to doctors or dentists. they still give me anxiety but I'm hopeful in time things will start looking up.

sooverit

Welcome and glad you're here :) Quitting with another dipper in the house has to be incredibly hard... Many people on here have been in the same boat. I couldn't imagine! But it can be done, as many have shown. We're all here to support you, so quit on!

Thumblewort

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We're all here for you, keep up the good work
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