Hello everybody,
I have been a lurker her for a very long time, I credit a lot of what I read on this sit to quitting (i.e. chew substitutes, words of encouragement). I didnÂ’t dip for a long period of time as stated in my title, but, I did do it for about 4 months. 3 months were about 3-4 dips a day, then I put a cap on it when I realized it was getting out of hand. I know compared to a lot of the individuals on this site that is a short period of time, but my thoughts are 1 day with this shit is one too many! I bet everybody on this site can agree with that. I am a hypochondriac and am still afraid of getting oral cancer I look in my mouth like 20 times a day. Will I get it down the road, I read all these stories and they scare the shit out of me! Honestly, my gums still donÂ’t look very good, they look chewed up. I went to the dentist 2 months ago and he said everything looked good, although it doesnÂ’t to me.
I threw my last tin away on New YearÂ’s 2014, I quote "fuck this shit, threw the tin in the woods". When I stopped cold turkey I had sores in my mouth. I thought to myself "oh great I finally quit, and I get mouth cancer". Well I pulled this website up and I saw this exact quote here, donÂ’t freak out its part of the healing process when your ph level in your mouth restores itself. However, this is the kicker I am in the ARMY. No lie in the Army its everywhere, I am sure you vets and current services members know this! All my Soldiers were doing it, I broke up with my current wife at the time which was a precursor for me starting dipping this was before we got married and I became completely depressed. Also, found out I had a medical condition unrelated to dip that would alter my career for the rest of my life. I feel so stupid for ever starting, on the bright side I quit early but I slipped, I took another dip in July, it wasnÂ’t a long dip because I couldnÂ’t tolerate it. After that slip-up I never dipped again.
However, in August my father passed away from bladder cancer caused by smoking. He was a heavy smoker from 14-64 his age of death, I hated tobacco I have no idea where I lost my will power to start dip. To make matters worse I smoked a cigar out of stress after everything was said and done in November because my buddy came over to help me with an anxitey attack. How stupid was I, my farther passes away and I do exactly what killed him? It was horrible to watch, he was my hero and the reason why I chose to go into the military, a big jacked Marine, I cant belive what cancer did and I still have PTSD from the incident. I can guarantee I will never touch another tobacco product again and I will "swear that on this site to my father knowing I could never break that promise". Anyway, you all motivate me here; I joined this sight because I do need the reassurance that I am not alone here. I also look forward to becoming part of the team to help motivate others to kick this nasty shit! Sorry for the long winded introduction but I wanted you all to get the history behind it. As you can see these last two years have not been kind to me. However, itÂ’s no excuse to pick this crap up and make problems worse. I am 27 years old and as I saw on this site, you have to hate this stuff to make it work. I can tell you now, I hate it with a fucking passion!!!
