Mark4

[Lours]

Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.

But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.

As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.

Keep bringing this !!!!

Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said

Nice post.

Thank you for sharing your journey, quit with you.

[Scowick65]

Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.

But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.

As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.

Keep bringing this !!!!

Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said

Nice post.

[cbird65]

Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.

But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.

As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.

Keep bringing this !!!!

Quitters find a way to stay quit ....enough said

[mark4]

Day 85. Surgery is over and feeling better, yet another major drama to deal with. The holidays have been anything but festive this year. When it rains, it pours has never been so true. These 85 days are simply amazing. It would be comical at what all has gone wrong since i quit were it not so painful. And the past fews days in KTC has been filled with people leaving or threatening to leave, even one of our own January guys left today, the Lipi drama, and on and on. Bet its busy days for Admins and Mods. Maybe this normal, who knows.

But I sort of laugh at all that noise. Just excuses. Not sure, but I think I can trump anyone else's excuse and I'm not giving in. Each and every bad or trying event in life is an excuse or reason to listen to the lie that its ok to back up and back off and do this quit thing later on. It really just doesn't matter what "it" is, getting to the point that "it" is just an excuse has changed me. Each day, I have to chew on this fact and accept it ODAAT. No words will ever be able to communicate how hard that is at times.

As 100 days starts to come into focus, I get nervous. Like its really this close. Of course I'm not cured or healed, but in this destruction in my life, its one more thing I get to put a WIN on. I crave WINS more than nic and failure. So for me, 100 days also sort of marks the rebuild of my company, finances, health, everything. I'm excited to hit 100 days for many more reasons than quit. The real irony is, this KTC thing gave me the tools to not only beat nic, they totally apply to life. Learning how to choose a course of action each day and stick to it despite withering forces opposed to it, was probably my greatest Christmas gift this year.

[30isEnuff]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.

My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.

Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that.

Nope no going back. I chose freedom and recovery verses being kicked around by a tin or life.

When the quit gets tough, keep on quitting!
ODAAT and NAFAR, period

[mark4]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.

My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.

Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that.

Nope no going back. I chose freedom and recovery verses being kicked around by a tin or life.

[NoMoreCopeBlack]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.

My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.

Mark I don't hear you saying that you're considering caving, rather that you choose strength. I quit to that.

[jake_m]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.

My Dad always told me "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". These are amazing words for a recovering addict. Once you beat this truly rough spot, Mark, other things that once seemed diffucult will now seem so simple because you have already lived through much worse. You got this man. You are one really strong guy. You are something to look up to. You created a whole new level to my quit by opening up to us in the text group. My problems now do not seem very significant at all. I find myself saying things like "my problems are not shit compared to Mark's. If he can do it so can I!!!" Next time you even consider caving, just remember the effect it will have on me and the others. This quit is bigger than you now. Besides you conveinently live in the center of our text group. Me, Taco, Okie, Matt and Tige will all come over and give you a swift kick square in the dick should you ever cave.

[bronc]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

Mark, I'm a call away if you need anything at all. I'm so proud of you. In fact, I was thinking about you just yesterday, when I got a text from Nate, another of our June brothers. You've taken a tough road, but you still have your support and brotherhood surrounding you. Your honor and integrity, health and respect are everything. You got this. Hang in there.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

You are going through tough times. Keep using your tools. Stuff will get better. No excuses for failure when it comes to quitting nicotine.

Proud of you.

[tarpon17]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

I'll quit with you any damn day!

[mark4]

Day 76. And this quit has been more of a war than I ever imagined. I suppose the theme of my quit has been "excuses". Back when I dropped out of my first "stop", it was due to massive financial pressures with my business and at home. We all have excuses to stop quitting, but mine seemed worse and justifiable. This mess I'm in isn't simply a days or weeks event, its been a long slide down over the course of a year. I constantly fight those thoughts that, this is truly a good excuse to bow out and give up, not only my quit, but on everything.

Today, I find myself not fearing but actually living my worst fears, as the business did fail and collapse. I am now starting over from square one. Not exactly a place I planned on being at this point in my life. All this has made my quit something different as I am not only battling the usual 70's craves and other "typical" cycles. But rather, those typical quit struggles along with the crippling stress, financial strains and personal doubt. If there was ever an excuse to bail out, this is it.

But I am learning that all this crap can be a good excuse, or it can be a way forward. All the things we say in regards to quitting, aren't just applicable to quitting, they are applicable to life. The fight to keep your word, to endure, to embrace the suck, to focus on just one day at a time, to win... these have all been instrumental in my fight with nic and in life. This could all be a great excuses or they could be forging a new man. I wake up each day and chose the later. I post roll not only to make a promise about nic, I post it to stand up and own another day and rebuild.

Yesterday, another fabulous excuse presented itself when i found myself in the ER in the cardiac wing. I learned I had a Pre Atrial Contraction problem with my heart. As I laid there with all those wires monitoring me and an IV drip going, i got so angry thinking, not yet another kick in the face. How I can't take yet another thing. Yet, I quickly found my KTC toolbox kicking in, I started texting my group what was going on, I told myself ODAAT, and I wanted to win and wouldn't be knocked down by this either.

There are always going to be perfectly good excuses to bail out. Not only with nic, but with my marriage, with my kids, with work, with relationships, and a thousand other areas of life. Quitting is a huge win, but taking those skills and learning to shoot down excuses and stay the course in life, is a HUGE bonus prize of this quit.

[Raider]

Well, day 50 is here. 50 days ago this seemed like an eternity. I know thats a milestone but it sort of gets lost among my other trials with work. My quit continues to be a battle for my attention against business problems. Its all really odd how the quit and the business failure started at the same time and how much of a battle its been to handle both. They say there is never a good time to quit, ain't that some truth. There are more than a few really bad days, where I just long for relief and escape, anything to ease this up. Frustration also pushes me to think about ditching the only thing I can change, the choice to use nic. I can't change, speed up, or slow down whats happening with the business, but I could just cave and mitigate that stress. Yeah, I fell for that before, but it still fills my head as a real option.

Despite the quit symptoms and mental war, the quit isn't optional, it's something I hold on to, because I can. Its nearly the only thing I can control anymore, its a choice. Fallout from the business is out of my control and it is what it is. But quitting is in my control and my daily victory I hold dear, in a season where there aren't many victories. I NEED that daily victory. I NEED the accountability and friendship with the guys in my text group and across KTC. I NEED to be plugged into something bigger than myself. Quitting and you lovable retards who quit with me are a huge sanity check in a crazy time, despite the significant fight that is staying quit. Nothing would be worse right now than to lose my only victory and let down quitters, I can't even imagine how bad that would be in my soul. So no, its not an option now, its not an option later. No one, especially me, is going to forfeit this victory.

Well I just read your whole intro Mark and I can tell you that my quit is stronger after reading it. So thanks for sharing all that. You are going through a hard time and I applaud you for knowing that nic wont make other problems go away. 50 days of freedom is a great accomplishment. Keep quitting brother and you will see that things will get better on all fronts. I am quitting my ass off with you today!

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[rdad]

Well, day 50 is here. 50 days ago this seemed like an eternity. I know thats a milestone but it sort of gets lost among my other trials with work. My quit continues to be a battle for my attention against business problems. Its all really odd how the quit and the business failure started at the same time and how much of a battle its been to handle both. They say there is never a good time to quit, ain't that some truth. There are more than a few really bad days, where I just long for relief and escape, anything to ease this up. Frustration also pushes me to think about ditching the only thing I can change, the choice to use nic. I can't change, speed up, or slow down whats happening with the business, but I could just cave and mitigate that stress. Yeah, I fell for that before, but it still fills my head as a real option.

Despite the quit symptoms and mental war, the quit isn't optional, it's something I hold on to, because I can. Its nearly the only thing I can control anymore, its a choice. Fallout from the business is out of my control and it is what it is. But quitting is in my control and my daily victory I hold dear, in a season where there aren't many victories. I NEED that daily victory. I NEED the accountability and friendship with the guys in my text group and across KTC. I NEED to be plugged into something bigger than myself. Quitting and you lovable retards who quit with me are a huge sanity check in a crazy time, despite the significant fight that is staying quit. Nothing would be worse right now than to lose my only victory and let down quitters, I can't even imagine how bad that would be in my soul. So no, its not an option now, its not an option later. No one, especially me, is going to forfeit this victory.

Well I just read your whole intro Mark and I can tell you that my quit is stronger after reading it. So thanks for sharing all that. You are going through a hard time and I applaud you for knowing that nic wont make other problems go away. 50 days of freedom is a great accomplishment. Keep quitting brother and you will see that things will get better on all fronts. I am quitting my ass off with you today!

[mark4]

Well, day 50 is here. 50 days ago this seemed like an eternity. I know thats a milestone but it sort of gets lost among my other trials with work. My quit continues to be a battle for my attention against business problems. Its all really odd how the quit and the business failure started at the same time and how much of a battle its been to handle both. They say there is never a good time to quit, ain't that some truth. There are more than a few really bad days, where I just long for relief and escape, anything to ease this up. Frustration also pushes me to think about ditching the only thing I can change, the choice to use nic. I can't change, speed up, or slow down whats happening with the business, but I could just cave and mitigate that stress. Yeah, I fell for that before, but it still fills my head as a real option.

Despite the quit symptoms and mental war, the quit isn't optional, it's something I hold on to, because I can. Its nearly the only thing I can control anymore, its a choice. Fallout from the business is out of my control and it is what it is. But quitting is in my control and my daily victory I hold dear, in a season where there aren't many victories. I NEED that daily victory. I NEED the accountability and friendship with the guys in my text group and across KTC. I NEED to be plugged into something bigger than myself. Quitting and you lovable retards who quit with me are a huge sanity check in a crazy time, despite the significant fight that is staying quit. Nothing would be worse right now than to lose my only victory and let down quitters, I can't even imagine how bad that would be in my soul. So no, its not an option now, its not an option later. No one, especially me, is going to forfeit this victory.