Hello, I am on day SIX!! It has been tough! BUT no more excuses as to why I should have that one dip and start again tomorrow. No more lying to myself or my family.
When I started dipping about 30 years ago as a young teenager I thought it was cool. Well, it is time to grow up. Time to face the possibility or should I say probability that if I continue it will kill me.
As I am typing this, my cousin is in ICU, sedated and on a ventilator. We are both the same age and started dipping about the same time. He's in ICU from complications from surgery over a week ago. The surgery was because of oral cancer, he lost half his tongue and the lymph nodes in his neck.
Again, it is time to face reality. It's time to stop being selfish. It's not fair to my family that I make the decision every day to play Russian roulette with my life.
I know that it will not be easy. I quit once before for about two years but made the mistake of just having that one dip. All it took was that single dip to get me back to where I was six days ago!
I am done. No more.