My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob