Andrew, Let it suck right up to the point you can't take it anymore. (I will get back to this point). You need to remember this. You need to etch this sucky feeling into your brain so that you will never want to go through it again. You know they say we Americans have a short memory and I agree. We need to be more aware of the episodes in our lives and not discount them so quickly. So, back to my point. Let it suck right up to the point where you can't take it anymore. Right to the edge and then............It's all up to you and what you choose to do with it. I got pissed, I was pissed that I let something control me. I was pissed that I was having to fight for my life against something that I welcomed in. That's hard because you first have to admit that you were wrong, and none of us want to do that. Then you have to admit you are an addict. Then, you can submit to that addiction and go back or you can get pissed and win. You make the decision, just you, not us, wife, kids, preacher, or anybody else. This is a soul embracing moment and it may happen dozens of times. You must win each time. We here at KTC have been there, and we will give guidance, encouragement, and sometimes a little piss and vinegar but we all want you to stay quit. It is so nice when you break through the virginity of a quit.
Mogul
