Well here we go....after a spending the last day checking out the ins and outs of this site, ive decided its about fucking time i kicked this habit out of my life for good! Ive realized its only me that can do it, all the times i "quit" for my Fiance, my brother, or anyone else that said it was bad...well i realize why it never worked. Because I didnt want to. Well this time its different, i want it, I want my quit, and i want this to be in the past and out of my life. I come from a long line of addictive personalities, drugs, alcohol, you name it and my addiction to this poison is just as bad! My dad quit drinking when i left for basic training, when i finally came home seeing the joy on his face was amazing and now with him being 2 and a half years sober...if he can kick that why cant I do this! A lot of people ive been talking to have all pretty much said i was fucking nuts for doing this at this particular time in life, and i say why not? Im currently deployed and as many of you prior service members would know, this is where you pick up those shitty nicotine habits, but not me! Here are my thoughts on it, I wok 12 hours a day in the blistering heat, if i dont have a can during the day, theres absolutely no way of getting one out to me, and its so scarce here that aint nobody gonna share a pinch! Then after work its straight too the gym for about 2 hours, my new sanctuary, where i will continue to go and work harder at my new addiction to help get rid of the old. After that head to eat and get to bed, a simple life style out here that i find easy to quit in. Also no alcohol cant be drinking for the next 5-6 months, and that was my weak point. Hell i could go through almost 2 cans just in a night at the bar!! Whiskey and Copenhagen, just went together so good! and most off all, it makes sense to me to quit here, and thats all that fucking matters!!
Im ready to sack up and do this! Today is day 1! July 4th 2013, a new stage in my life.
(it is already the 4th out here where im at, im 10 hours ahead so if i ever post roll call late its really the morning for me)
Day 1: Today, time to embrace the suck!
Happy 4th of July everyone!