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Offline kenjames

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Re: New member
« Reply #3 on: January 22, 2018, 01:40:00 PM »
I started feeling a little better from illness Saturday and have been slowly improving. I'm now on day 5 and woke with confidence. Today is my first day back at work since I quit and the urges have become extremely challenging. At one point this morning I thought "F-it, just get one tin. Who cares. No harm."

Well, it looks like I'm already drinking the Kool-Aid because I then reminded myself that I put myself on roll call today. I made a promise and can't break it. Tomorrow morning if I still want to ruin my life, fine, but not today buckarroo. Thanks you all.

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Re: New member
« Reply #2 on: January 20, 2018, 07:01:00 PM »
Hey kenjames

Welcome to KTC! Glad to see you jumped right in to our April '18 group. Great job on posting roll, just remember that is your promise not to use nicotine for today, keep that promise today and when tomorrow comes rinse and repeat.

There is a lot of quit knowledge here, take some time read things over.

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Offline kenjames

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« on: January 20, 2018, 05:33:00 PM »
Hi. I'm 42 years old and quit dipping the afternoon of Jan 17th. The first words to my wife were "I think I'm getting a cold, I feel off"

It started snowing early and by lunchtime we had a good 2 inches on the driveway. I was also out of dip. I work from home and have a flexible schedule so I went out to clear the driveway and get some more. My average was 1 tin a day. On really bad days it was more. I couldn't get the darn snowblower to work - it was the first time I tried to use it this season and threw a MASSIVE FIT. I decided to get back to my desk and continue work. I'll get it later.

At the end of the day the cold hit me. I was really ill. Not a sinus problem. This feels like flu. :( No energy, even to get more precious dip. The next morning I felt worse. Fever. Body aches. A fantastic idea popped into my head " You've been meaning to quit and you feel so bad right now I bet you won't even notice the withdrawal."

And here I am!

I got some medicine from the doctor and am starting to feel better but am committed to quitting.

History:

Been hooked on nicotine since I was 14 or 15. It started with dip. Back in those days it was pretty easy to buy dip or cigarettes as a minor. The laws were introduced just about when I turned 18 :|

Around 17 years old a friend told me that dip is gross, girls won't like it, and that I should try cigarettes. So I did. It was more socially acceptable and I got my fix. So I smoked and I smoked and I smoked.

Over the years I quit a few times, sometimes a week, a month, once for two years (divorce got me going again)

I had sinus surgery when I was around 36 (maybe from all the smoking????) and the recovery was terrible. I decided to not smoke anymore and chose to dip again. How stupid. Did it slowly at first and it would take a week or so to get through a tin. But after a few months I got up to one tin/day.

I was seeing a dentist regularly until 38. (I always hated the dentist and still have childhood fears of them!) I've been too afraid because of the dipping. I know I have two bad cavities that need to be addressed and have known about them I knew about them since my last visit 4 years ago.

Today I got the courage to closely examine my lower teeth and gums. They are disgusting. Absolutely disgusting. I am filled with anxiety about returning to dentist.

Wish me luck. Since I'm still pretty ill I have no desire to dip and remain hopeful this disposition continues once I am back to normal.