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Offline AtomicDiesel

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #92 on: November 23, 2011, 03:26:00 PM »
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Add some aloe vera gel to your tooth brush when you scrub your nasty little fangs. It will help heal your mouth.
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wtf you laughing at Dipp? Man that stuff is the shiznit for trench mouth. try it man, you'll see. 'na na'
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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #91 on: November 23, 2011, 03:17:00 PM »
i feel like this quit has made me think about a lot of things in my life.

what i want to do. where i want to go. why. etc

day 8 going great.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #90 on: November 22, 2011, 10:20:00 AM »
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Add some aloe vera gel to your tooth brush when you scrub your nasty little fangs. It will help heal your mouth.
'na na' 'crackup'


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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #89 on: November 22, 2011, 09:14:00 AM »
Add some aloe vera gel to your tooth brush when you scrub your nasty little fangs. It will help heal your mouth.
?The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand; repent and believe in the gospel.? Mark 1:15
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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #88 on: November 22, 2011, 07:43:00 AM »
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I definitely never want to go through another week like this again.
This is a good thing. Don't forget this feeling. Your body and mind are telling you they are healing.

Keep fighting. Persevere. Your quitter balls are going to drop once you get on the other side of this.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #87 on: November 21, 2011, 01:02:00 PM »
today is day six.

my mouth is still very sore, my mind is still kind of cloudy, and i've been eating a shit ton of candy. I don't really want fake chew or anything, i want my lip to get used to not having a pocket between it and the gums, and for it to heal.

I am so fucking thankful for this site being here, even being hard on me and for continuing to be.

I hung out with Brad last night for the first time since we talked about it and I was pleased to find out he was quit still. Even if he doesn't stay quit he knows where I am and can respect where I am. That is a nice feeling. I don't have any friends who will pressure me anymore, and I definitely never want to go through another week like this again.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #86 on: November 18, 2011, 04:30:00 PM »
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I took yesterday pretty hard, today I am taking a little bit better. I have begunforming a plan and that plan involves a good friend of mine who is a sometimes dipper (seems not to have a problem never doing it)

Brad used to play bass in my band and is my best friend and he has pledged to quit with me. WHether he smokes or whatever he decides to do, which is his perogative, he has told me he will not dip because he wants to see me succeed.
don't hitch your quit train to an engine that's you're not 1000% confident in. if brad has a weak moment, your quit is fucked with your current plan.

you need to rely on YOU. sure, have support; have numbers to call. but don't quit "with" someone. i am quit for me. when my friend caved, i cared personally, but my quit didn't give a shit. he's back on the wagon, and i'm happy about that, but my quit really still doesn't give a shit.

don't just post roll in feb. you have more to offer than just that. you can be their guide. hell, you've been through the shit enough times to know what's coming. you know the pitfalls. get VOCAL and be a leader. trust me, the more you post and offer advice, support, and wisdom, the less likely you'll cave. no one likes being a hypocrite... get to know your new quit brothers. call them. text them. tough to shit all over FRIENDS and not just usernames/avatars.


right there is a better fucking plan than hitching your wagon to someone who's still going to be using nicotine and a sister who loves you but has NO FUCKING CLUE what quitting dip is like.

buy in. drink deep of the koolaid. get invested.

stay quit.
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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #85 on: November 18, 2011, 03:12:00 PM »
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I am pissed today.

at myself for going through this again.
at being reminded of how people died before they were time.

disappointed in my lack of self respect and that's another reason i am quit today.

day three.
and this is the kind of shit you need to remember the next time you are headed back to the can. You should read your own words...question is, will you?

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #84 on: November 18, 2011, 02:28:00 PM »
I am pissed today.

at myself for going through this again.
at being reminded of how people died before they were time.

disappointed in my lack of self respect and that's another reason i am quit today.

day three.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #83 on: November 17, 2011, 02:18:00 PM »
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just stay fucking quit and stay posting on this forum.
That is the formula...1 day at a time. Hard but simple.
All there is to it. Just stay fucking quit.
The love you get here is conditional. The condition is that you are quit.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #82 on: November 17, 2011, 01:55:00 PM »
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just stay fucking quit and stay posting on this forum.
That is the formula...1 day at a time. Hard but simple.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #81 on: November 17, 2011, 01:53:00 PM »
I took yesterday pretty hard, today I am taking a little bit better. I have begunforming a plan and that plan involves a good friend of mine who is a sometimes dipper (seems not to have a problem never doing it)

Brad used to play bass in my band and is my best friend and he has pledged to quit with me. WHether he smokes or whatever he decides to do, which is his perogative, he has told me he will not dip because he wants to see me succeed.

If I feel the need to dip I have two people to call lined up, one being him, and one being my sister. They have both been there for me through way harder things and they know if I call them I am on my last leg.

I am not sure what to do different this time other than just stay fucking quit and stay posting on this forum. I know it really helps me to post roll every day so that is something I will be doing, although I had considered not posting here anymore after the reception I got (which i deserve)

YOu guys can't quit for me, I have to quit for me. BUT I do appreciate the response and the place to put my word.

I will also say I have don't think I've posted once that I would quit for the day without actually quitting for the day. I just quit posting and caved after that.

so that is a thing I will be doing differently.

Peace.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #80 on: November 17, 2011, 08:07:00 AM »
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I'm just lost as to where to start after the fail and fail and fail that I've had.
You start by not failing again!

Seriously, put your big boy pants on and quit fucking dipping man. Quit being such a pussy and get on with your life. We did it, why can't you?
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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #79 on: November 17, 2011, 07:26:00 AM »
Okay little bunny...I'm not sure where your head is at. It doesn't inspire me to "Occupy UST" and I think a few weeks of Souliman not showering and living under some UST exec's desk would send a message.

I like quitters. I have had the good fortune of meeting a few of them and I can tell you they all have a common trait: when you look them in the eye, they have purpose. Their character flows without constraint. They know what they want. This is what is on the other side waiting for you. But its self fulfilling. You have to want that to be that. That's how it works. So get that ass off the proverbial addict couch and part the quit sea brother. Be bold.

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Re: Last Chance for a Slow Dance take II
« Reply #78 on: November 17, 2011, 05:55:00 AM »
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Been gone a while. Who am I to say shit. But the subject line for this intro had me hopeful. "Help." That says it all doesn't it? I thought it would be some noob trying to figure out the path. But no - it's a vet. When I read "A lot has happened since I started again..." frankly, I stopped reading.

A lot has happened since I quit. A lot happened before I quit, too. A lot's gonna happen for the rest of my life. There's no excuse for failure. Don't make excuses. Understand where you weakness came from and address it. It's not because "a lot has happened" - it's because you thought you had it licked. You thought you could handle one can without worrying about it. Your weakness was your overconfidence. I think you knew you were going to cave even while you were committing to your quit through roll.

What's different this time? Indeed. What will be different? You never broke your word. You just stopped posting - which makes it easier. You need to man up and see your quit through to the end. And the end is when you die - hopefully at a ripe old age. This isn't a parlor trick. There's no "100 days and I'm free" routine. You're in, then you're in all the way.

But who the fuck and I to say anything. Just another addict with an opinion. I hope your quit holds this time Benny. I'm with Klark on this one though. Why should we believe in you?
I read this post twice it was so good.