31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
