Quit Day 05/29/2013

[tgafish]

150 Days-

It gets better! Holy balls it gets better!

Actually it get exponetially better! You lose almost all of the craves but retain all the badass pride you felt when you first learned you could be free.
Rock on Sept brother! 'oh yeah'

[Dougie]

150 Days-

It gets better! Holy balls it gets better!

Don't get too comfy though because the addict is still there waiting for you to drop your guard and "just have one" the mental BS is still lingering. I have been travelling the last 2 out of 3 weeks for work and both times the temptress has whispered- it seriously pisses me off that after 150 days my addict still thinks it can get a fix-

My apologies Addict-Self, you are not getting any nicotine today. I will arise early tomorrow and and make the same pledge. I know that one day these urges will go away. I know this because these 150 days have been pretty much the same as every other Quitter's 150 days- ups and downs but overall up with each new day of freedom.

These funks have all been foretold- those that drink the KTC kool-aide and read everything this site has to offer know these simple truths. It gives me strength during rough patches to know that thousands of KTC brothers and sisters have walked this path and they made it through nicotine free. So this stupid 150 day funk can go fuck itself.

This funk right here is why it is so important for me to stay connected and to keep posting my word.

In a few days my role as October Duck Fips conductor will come to a close- I had a great time doing that and want to thank everyone involved! I also made some new KTC friends- especially Duathman that got me involved with some other KTC'ers on KIK.

This is how a quit is done- One Day At Time I Quit Like Fuck.

I feel better already!

[Mike from AB]

Congrats on HOF!!

[Minny]

Well done Dougie. I quit with you Erussell.



We are headed to the land of cornfields and sunflowers nowÂ…. Yes this means we are picking up our boy DOUGIE! He is a September BADDASS who just hit 100 days of freedom from the biggest bitch he has ever known. He started chewing when he was 14 years old (seems like the average age around here). He is a process engineer from Charles city Iowa. Not sure what that entails but I am sure it means he has more student loans then I doÂ….. The craziest thing he has ever done was to jump off a bridge into a flooded river, where he then got stuck under a log and almost drowned until he somehow mustered his super human strength and freed himself. He says he enjoys ALL kinds of inappropriate behavior! I think that means he likes to play doctor with the Amish girls in the country where he livesÂ… His favorite avatar is his ownÂ…. A sunflower. I used to think it was kind of girly but he explained to me that it represents how sunflower seeds saved him from his addiction and helped him gain his freedom. IÂ’m relieved to know the reason behind the avatar! Just saying! The only thing I can say bad about DougieÂ…. He drives a Nissan Titan! Really? Bro! Upgrade to a Chevy! Have some pride!
His advice to others… “Knowledge is power; I spent the first half of my quit reading everything I could on this site. It helped more than I could have imagined”.
He is inspired by many people here but would like to recognize a couple in particular…. “Smokeyg's humor helped a ton and his insight was very much spot on. Erussell's strength through what had to be a miserable experience was very humbling and put my petty troubles into perspective. There are a lot of real men on this site that each added a unique insight into my quit; which is why I believe that reading all you can on this site is the best way to quit”.
DOUGIE! You are a BADASS who truly deserves his place on this train! Welcome aboard! We are glad to have you! See you at 200Â….Jake Frawley

YEAH DOUGIE!

You never blinked and have been an influence on me from day 1. Congrats. +1 with you.

[Erussell]

Well done Dougie. I quit with you Erussell.



We are headed to the land of cornfields and sunflowers nowÂ…. Yes this means we are picking up our boy DOUGIE! He is a September BADDASS who just hit 100 days of freedom from the biggest bitch he has ever known. He started chewing when he was 14 years old (seems like the average age around here). He is a process engineer from Charles city Iowa. Not sure what that entails but I am sure it means he has more student loans then I doÂ….. The craziest thing he has ever done was to jump off a bridge into a flooded river, where he then got stuck under a log and almost drowned until he somehow mustered his super human strength and freed himself. He says he enjoys ALL kinds of inappropriate behavior! I think that means he likes to play doctor with the Amish girls in the country where he livesÂ… His favorite avatar is his ownÂ…. A sunflower. I used to think it was kind of girly but he explained to me that it represents how sunflower seeds saved him from his addiction and helped him gain his freedom. IÂ’m relieved to know the reason behind the avatar! Just saying! The only thing I can say bad about DougieÂ…. He drives a Nissan Titan! Really? Bro! Upgrade to a Chevy! Have some pride!
His advice to others… “Knowledge is power; I spent the first half of my quit reading everything I could on this site. It helped more than I could have imagined”.
He is inspired by many people here but would like to recognize a couple in particular…. “Smokeyg's humor helped a ton and his insight was very much spot on. Erussell's strength through what had to be a miserable experience was very humbling and put my petty troubles into perspective. There are a lot of real men on this site that each added a unique insight into my quit; which is why I believe that reading all you can on this site is the best way to quit”.
DOUGIE! You are a BADASS who truly deserves his place on this train! Welcome aboard! We are glad to have you! See you at 200Â….Jake Frawley

[B-loMatt]

Getting close to HOF. I haven't been posting much in any intro threads for the last 3-4 weeks. I bought myself a Surly Moonlander; 4.8" tires and the fucker can go anywhere I want it to! It's a tank, weighing somewhere around 34 lbs I have been riding the shit out of it and soaking up whatever fatbike knowledge I can from the interwebs.

That's what I do. I get interested in something and I read everything I can so I can be somewhat educated in it; I like to have a clue ya know! That is what I did 97 days ago (well 94 I guess I quit a few days before landing here). I got in here and I just soaked it all in. Reading as much as I could, drinking the kool-aid.

So, it seems this past week I have been getting more urges. I have had a couple dip dreams and a few times my thoughts wander to the bitch. My dream last night was odd... I made my mind up that I was going to get a fucking can; drove to the store, walked in, and then just turned around and got back into the car and went home. No purchase. I dont know what to make of it; other than I still own this quit and the bitch better recognize that I am quit and I will be quit again tomorrow.

So, that's about it.

I fucking hate chew. I fucking hate that I still think about the shit. I hate knowing that I will have to deal with this addiction for the rest of my life.

I fucking Love my new Freedom. I fucking Love knowing that I dont have to balance my life around getting a nic fix. I fucking love knowing that I CAN remain nicotine free the rest of my life by dealing with it ODAAT.

I dont know that I will be giving a HOF speech anytime soon; I am going to wait for the urges that have been pounding me lately to go the fuck away. I guess I dont feel that I have this fucker beat yet and I dont want to go out celebrating some victory that isn't really there. I guess I celebrate it daily by posting roll call and seeing my brothers post roll call with me.

That's all for today.

Brother you are a bad ass quitter! Those urges don't make you less of a quitter. If anything they make you more of a quitter. If we didn't get urges we wouldn't be addicts, and we wouldn't need to fight like hell to quit. I am enjoying more and more days of quit where I don't even think about the poison, but then again I still have days when I need to fight for my freedom. I imagine that as we keep +1ing those good days keep getting more frequent than the hard days, but as an addict I accept that there will always be days when the nic bitch tries to rally, and I am glad for this. It thankfully gets harder to remember day 1, but these urges remind us that we are still addicts, quit addicts to be sure, but still addicts. We must never let our guards down because one more will make us slaves. Hard to get complacent when you have a day where the craves are coming all day long. None of us bad assed quitters ever have this thing beat. Nic addiction is like a regenerating monster that can never be destroyed forever; it is why one day at a time is so powerful for us. We can never beat this thing for good and that reality can be daunting, but you know for sure you can beat this thing today, and you know you will sign up to beat it again tomorrow. Applejack posted last week on his intro about sitting on ones porch after finishing a big job that one throws all they have into it for a period of time, and just enjoying the fuits of ones labors. Don't sweat pulling back your KTC time a bit. Sit on your porch and enjoy what you have accomplished! You are kicking nics ass EDD! Have fun off-roading.

[Dougie]

Getting close to HOF. I haven't been posting much in any intro threads for the last 3-4 weeks. I bought myself a Surly Moonlander; 4.8" tires and the fucker can go anywhere I want it to! It's a tank, weighing somewhere around 34 lbs I have been riding the shit out of it and soaking up whatever fatbike knowledge I can from the interwebs.

That's what I do. I get interested in something and I read everything I can so I can be somewhat educated in it; I like to have a clue ya know! That is what I did 97 days ago (well 94 I guess I quit a few days before landing here). I got in here and I just soaked it all in. Reading as much as I could, drinking the kool-aid.

So, it seems this past week I have been getting more urges. I have had a couple dip dreams and a few times my thoughts wander to the bitch. My dream last night was odd... I made my mind up that I was going to get a fucking can; drove to the store, walked in, and then just turned around and got back into the car and went home. No purchase. I dont know what to make of it; other than I still own this quit and the bitch better recognize that I am quit and I will be quit again tomorrow.

So, that's about it.

I fucking hate chew. I fucking hate that I still think about the shit. I hate knowing that I will have to deal with this addiction for the rest of my life.

I fucking Love my new Freedom. I fucking Love knowing that I dont have to balance my life around getting a nic fix. I fucking love knowing that I CAN remain nicotine free the rest of my life by dealing with it ODAAT.

I dont know that I will be giving a HOF speech anytime soon; I am going to wait for the urges that have been pounding me lately to go the fuck away. I guess I dont feel that I have this fucker beat yet and I dont want to go out celebrating some victory that isn't really there. I guess I celebrate it daily by posting roll call and seeing my brothers post roll call with me.

That's all for today.

[Scowick65]

Day 62-

Overall I would say I am in good spirits- at least this afternoon!

Went for a run during lunch and spotted a can of death on the side of the road- not a temptation- I let it lie where it was just so I didn't raise any temptations- My run starts and ends near a cemetery so that should be a pretty powerful reminder of the joys of tobacco.

I spent a fair amount of time waxing philosophically about quitting and running- Effort put into something being directly proportional to achievement of one's goals.

Trust me; it was some good shit out there on the country roads of North Iowa. I had it all worked up in the mind but can't seem to find it now so I can recreate it for my thread-o-quit.

I figured out the whole asshole thing- I need to fucking relax dude all my frustrations are focused on my family and the kids not doing what I tell them to... why do I really care so much if they leave their bikes out or some other petty, insignificant thing???

I just remembered what I need to do to get back into laid back Dougie-ness

Jack Kerouac- Dharma Bums; I love this book. I think it inspired me to drop out of graduate school- looking back this may not have been the best decision but that book is all awesome slackerness. Henry Morley has my favorite quote in it... I dont recall it well enough to post it right now but it has something to do with A tennis party being shirtless and the sun kicking a girls ass right back at you with boxes of oranges thrown in...


Running the gamut of emotions these days! Ups-downs-sideways and in-between-

One more good thing- Even 62 days later every time my wife yells my name (not in the bedroom) I panic- did she find my can?? Did she see the wad of death I tossed into the yard??? what lies do I need to tell???

I FUCKING DON'T MISS THAT SHIT- NOT ONE BIT

See you fuckers tomorrow for day 63 of QLF- Thanks CoachSteve!

'clap'

[Dougie]

Day 62-

Overall I would say I am in good spirits- at least this afternoon!

Went for a run during lunch and spotted a can of death on the side of the road- not a temptation- I let it lie where it was just so I didn't raise any temptations- My run starts and ends near a cemetery so that should be a pretty powerful reminder of the joys of tobacco.

I spent a fair amount of time waxing philosophically about quitting and running- Effort put into something being directly proportional to achievement of one's goals.

Trust me; it was some good shit out there on the country roads of North Iowa. I had it all worked up in the mind but can't seem to find it now so I can recreate it for my thread-o-quit.

I figured out the whole asshole thing- I need to fucking relax dude all my frustrations are focused on my family and the kids not doing what I tell them to... why do I really care so much if they leave their bikes out or some other petty, insignificant thing???

I just remembered what I need to do to get back into laid back Dougie-ness

Jack Kerouac- Dharma Bums; I love this book. I think it inspired me to drop out of graduate school- looking back this may not have been the best decision but that book is all awesome slackerness. Henry Morley has my favorite quote in it... I dont recall it well enough to post it right now but it has something to do with A tennis party being shirtless and the sun kicking a girls ass right back at you with boxes of oranges thrown in...


Running the gamut of emotions these days! Ups-downs-sideways and in-between-

One more good thing- Even 62 days later every time my wife yells my name (not in the bedroom) I panic- did she find my can?? Did she see the wad of death I tossed into the yard??? what lies do I need to tell???

I FUCKING DON'T MISS THAT SHIT- NOT ONE BIT

See you fuckers tomorrow for day 63 of QLF- Thanks CoachSteve!

[AppleJack]

Here's what you need to do..

Do you have a cold stone... They serve the best ice cream known to man. If there is not one near you just pick the best ice cream parlor you can. Take yourself And family there as soon as you can. Cold stone sales this one strawberry and banana ice cream and its to die for.

Buy yourself and your family one of these and you'll be amazed at how fast the ass hole is forgotten. Screw the 10 or 20 pounds. Cold stone,,,, brother, do it!!!

'crackup'

[srans]

Here's what you need to do..

Do you have a cold stone... They serve the best ice cream known to man. If there is not one near you just pick the best ice cream parlor you can. Take yourself And family there as soon as you can. Cold stone sales this one strawberry and banana ice cream and its to die for.

Buy yourself and your family one of these and you'll be amazed at how fast the ass hole is forgotten. Screw the 10 or 20 pounds. Cold stone,,,, brother, do it!!!

[AppleJack]

Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.

I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.

I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.

I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).

Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.

KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!

A sunflower can't be too much of an asshole. I too have been irritable for the past weeks. I think it is all part of the rewire, and like you said it will get down to manageable levels. The main thing is noticing and recognizing it, like you have, then you can adjust it, or react to it accordingly.
You are a stud of a quitter, one whose advice I know will get me to Mainstreet of Quitsville.
Thanks, Proud to be quit with you today.

Guys... This is good stuff! Changing "dip mode" takes awhile. Be patient and take pride in the fact that you're moving this direction! Step outside yourself for a minute... You quit. You're done. Spend your time doing new things and enjoying the fact you have nothing to tether you. Dlee said this awhile ago... "Quitting is fun you pussies!" You are the Masters here. The tobacco weed and his bitch Nicotine are nothing compared to you. Rock it...

[CaliforniaSlim]

Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.

I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.

I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.

I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).

Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.

KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!

A sunflower can't be too much of an asshole. I too have been irritable for the past weeks. I think it is all part of the rewire, and like you said it will get down to manageable levels. The main thing is noticing and recognizing it, like you have, then you can adjust it, or react to it accordingly.
You are a stud of a quitter, one whose advice I know will get me to Mainstreet of Quitsville.
Thanks, Proud to be quit with you today.

[Dougie]

Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.

I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.

I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.

I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).

Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.

KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!

[B-loMatt]

I think sometimes too much of a good thing is too much.

Yesterday I spent hours reading over this site, drinking the kool-aide, and pouring a few glasses where I could. Last night my dreams were wicked shit- I swear I could taste copenhagen which is funny because I never liked that shit when I was a dumb fuck dipper.

I guess I need to take all things in moderation!

Day 53- still a little funky- I am still dealing with the habitual parts of my addiction. I used to keep my can in the garage and every night after dinner I would walk outside and grab a dip- I find myself heading for the door after I eat, occasionally, I get outside and wonder what the fuck am I doing out here??

I QUIT LIKE FUCK TODAY!

I had a glass of what u poured yesterday. Tasted pretty good man. Not sure you can quit in moderation. You are either fully in or you are fully out. You are clearly all in and I am glad to be quit with you! Bump at will.

Good catch- I QUIT LIKE FUCK- no moderation there.

Thanks Derk40- its great to be quit with you

Dougie you just scared the hell out of the nic bitch with all your kool-aide chugging and dispensing, and she felt she had to try harder... No moderation in quit!