quit tomorrow.....

[tarpon17]

Quitters I've Met

GMANN

FLORIDALUKE

Aglawyer

Kdip

Bubblehead

[tarpon17]

A song to say goodbye to the can:

its marked on the calendar
the last time I lied
43 year old boy
with nothing to hide
that was the day
that a part of me died
I kissed it on the head
and I said my goodbye

the pallbearers came
to lay it away
I was in the crowd
gathered round the grave
a trumpet sounded in the back
and some people say
my face lit up like the sun
as I spit on the grave

when the roll's called up yonder
what a day of rejoicing that will be
when we all see jesus
we'll sing and claim Victory

[tarpon17]

Thoughts of freedom
Day 336 here and sitting on a ship 100 miles from land. No nic in site except for the few asswipes who smoke. Smoking is for pure assholes (sorry mom) but I never could do that stuff.

Can't believe that leading up to leaving the dock I thought about running to the c-store, grabbing a can that I could fondle for a week. Who'd know? I'm working with 40 people that never knew I dipped. Never knew I quit. I could ninja around the ship all I want.

But fuck that.

Why would I give up all that I have done up to this point. Why? There is not one single good reason. I feel like I'm in training for a marathon. Gotta run (post) every day, keep the training going. Each day a success in my training program.

Why become the slave to the master when I've done so well mastering the slave now? I will not because I know I can do it. No matter what.

I will give back, because I know how hard it is and that a word of encouragement is sometimes all it takes to get someone off the ledge.

I will not give in to Nic today at any point. You can make me think about it, but you have my word that I will not partake.

Newbs, roll with it. The craves you feel now suck, but remember you make the final decision. There's only two choices. And it should be pretty obvious which one to make.

[Cancrusher]

Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.

Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)

Same here bro, funny how a non-ghey meeting with another quitter can add a few links to the chain. I highly recommend it.

I miss you....:)

[tarpon17]

Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.

Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)

Same here bro, funny how a non-ghey meeting with another quitter can add a few links to the chain. I highly recommend it.

[Scowick65]

Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.

Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)

Nice quit brother. :)

[G]

Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day. But I don't let that get to my head. I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again. So I still post roll. Why not? It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months. That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey. One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room. After 100 days, that shit saved me. Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what? I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page. I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days. Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness. But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity: Post roll; chat; numbers. Thats how I got to here.

Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)

[tarpon17]

Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day. But I don't let that get to my head. I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again. So I still post roll. Why not? It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months. That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey. One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room. After 100 days, that shit saved me. Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what? I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page. I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days. Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness. But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity: Post roll; chat; numbers. Thats how I got to here.

[southtexasman]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)

I will not be fooled by that last sentence. There is not Mrs. Tarp, this was composed by Tarp to smokescreen his gheyness.

In all seriousness though. 1. Congrats on the double century mark. 2. Thanks for your support in my quit.

Later

[Greg5280]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)

Goo shit right here !!

Tarp Congrats man... you are certainly paying it forward. Proud to be quit with you.

And please let Mrs. Tarp know we have a strict don't ask don't tell policy on the site... just sayin. 'finger point'

'loot01' 'loot02'

'crackup'

[radtech04]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others.  His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible! 

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey...  ;)

Tarp- congrats on 200 bro! It is a BIG milestone! Mrs Tarp, thanks for being so supportive of this site! Even though Tarp is a bad ass quitter, he still is thooper ghey! :wub: RT(4)

[ODAAT]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)

Love it, Tarp is one of my all time favorite people on this site. But he really is ghey....

[G]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)

Congrats to Tarp. Nice post, Mrs. Tarp.

[tarpon17]

Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)

[ODAAT]

180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go. I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't. I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going. My health was good. I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit. The list goes on. However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves. Damn, I need to spit somewhere. If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance. Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so. Me, $200 a month! WTF. This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living. Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember. I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit. I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone. It is, but its not the end. Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away. But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with.

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction. I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass. Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass. At 0 I was killing myself. Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore. I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way. Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic. Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going. My support system was pulling me away from 0. Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0. 45 degrees. I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction. The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees. Whats so good about that? The sun comes up in the east. New day. New Quit. I'm in control of my life today. Let's keep moving. 100 days. Hall of Fame. This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter. The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand.

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less. Not gone, but weaker. Some days I don't feel it all. Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on.

I just hit day 180. I'm exactly opposite day 0. I like the sound of that. I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on. I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees. I will keep my compass in my hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction? Here, take my compass. It will lead you the way.

'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

That's some goooooood stuff right there tarp...