On The Road

[BigHeadDogTheMonster]

Thanks WS (and go Giants!).

I appreciate the words of wisdom. Seriously, these last few days have been so miserable with the anxiety. I know my body is resetting itself, but that doesn't make it any easier. I look forward to getting past this.

It's so weird. I, like many other people I've read about on this site, felt like I was in control. I believed a could quit at any time. That's why for my entire 10 years of chewing, I only once bought more than 1 can. Every can was my last. But, the thing that has been gnawing at me and I think put me over the edge was a few weeks ago when my little niece said to me, "Your breath stinks." I have not been able to forget that.

Anyway, thanks WS. I'll go right now and figure out how to do roll call!

BP

[WS101214]

Who starts when they are 25??? Shit, I started when I was almost 30 and just turned 44. Glad you are a lot smarter than me and quitting now. Get you ass on roll with the April Apes and get some digits, post every day and survive minute by minute if you have to. Day 3 for me is when the shit was hitting the fan, I also had the anxiety. Day 14 now and I know everyone's quit is different but there is a HUGE difference between day 3 and 14. You can get there.

[BigHeadDogTheMonster]

Howdy Kill the Can!

I'm on day three of my quit, and have been a lurker here for a few days; decided to sign up just today. 35 years old, been chewing for 10 years (who starts when they are 25?!?!?!?!). At the end, I was putting 2 pouches in my upper lip of Mint General, from the moment I woke up, until the time I went to sleep. I would sometimes even wake up in the middle of the night and throw one in.

My addiction was bad, and exacerbated by the fact that my girlfriend left me in October, so for the past couple of months, I could use as much and whenever I wanted.

The first night of my quit was awful. I mean, really bad. I woke up at midnight in a full on panic attack, and did not fall asleep until 5 AM. I was thinking about work, and finances, and my ex-girlfriend. The timing couldn't have been worse as I had to get up at 6 AM for a huge meeting regarding some potential business for our company. I made it through the day okay because I was engrossed in the meeting, but immediately when I got home, my panic attack started again. I kept thinking, "What the hell is going on?" I took some ambien after a soothing bath, and I slept decently the second (last) night. Today is much better, but there is that background anxiety I can't shake. Tonight I'm going to see the Hobbit with my cousin, and that will be a nice three hour break, but I'm afraid that when I get home that my anxiety will amp up.

I know it's still early in the process, but I've found that staying away from your smartphone or the Internet is a HUGE help for me when my anxiety is amping up. The exception to that rule, of course, is KillTheCan. This site has been so amazing so far. Beyond KTC, I stay away from email (work and personal), social media, or news outlets that will get me fired up.

I know I am doing this for myself, and everything I've read on this site says that's who you have to do it for if you want to be successful. Thank you in advance for all your support! I'm sure I'm going to need it.

BiPolar