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[wastepanel]

Oh, I'm not blaming him, I am just explaining why I am not telling him. Also I am showing that I probably am unreasonable while I am quitting.

Yes, he does chew.

A lot of times, people don't want to be shown there can be freedom from nicotine. They want to feel resolved to putting up with using it and "needing" it.

What made you quit?

Today, I am not really sure.

I think that it was hiding it from my kids and wanting to be healthier. I want to gain some weight too, because I think that will make me healthier, and not chewing is a good way to do that. I don't want my girls to catch me chewing.

Oh, I also hate that feeling of not having enough chew left to get through the day.

Don't think.

KNOW.

I know why I quit initially.

I bought my 6 year old son a can of beef jerky because I couldn't find any regular beef jerky and had promised him some. He was scared by it until I told him it was safe (and not daddy's stuff), and then he promptly went home and packed it in front of mom.

I saw the look of disappointment and rage in her eyes, and I saw the nonchalant way that he handled that can like it would be a part of his life one day.

I started looking at my behaviors.

If I was in public and couldn't get to the bathroom before being given my food, I would simply gut the glob with my first few bites. My body temperature would rise a thousand degrees the moment my body realized it wasn't getting a nicotine stream. I would have to sneak off all the time to put one in (as I only packed and unpacked in front of close friends).

I would sleep on a chair at night instead of my bed so I could have one last one at night. I'd fall asleep with it in and wake up either choking or have it all over my face or both. I'd sometimes sleep take it out and stuff it inside of the chair. We had little brown pellets under the chair all of the time and my wife would be irate.

I "couldn't" live without the stuff.

AND I WAS FUCKING TIRED OF IT.

I came here because I wanted to be quit. But I was afraid.

The good folks here propped me up, and gave me the tools to be quit.

But I had to do it on my own. I had to live my quit. I had to make this quit priority number one in my life. Soon afterwards, I now had another reason to be quit: I was afraid to fall. I was afraid to let down all of these people that have given me so much of their time. I was afraid that people would call me weak (both here and personally). I was afraid to let down my son that I sat down and explained just why I was weepy and angry.

Be quit because you want to be quit. Throw out any secondary reasons, but ultimately the answer is going to be "I want to be quit". Scream it from the rooftops. Write it out a million times. Say it in the mirror. Be quit. You can do it.

[Tuesday]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome.  I am so proud of you.  What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today.  That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today.  Step 2 to our program is keeping your word.  Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit.  I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years.  I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes.  Being "quit" is not just a decision.  It is a perpetual state of actions.  We plan to be quit.  We tailor our actions to be quit.  We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard.  There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out.  This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing.  Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here.  We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life.  You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

Terri, my wife actually bought me a can on one of the times I "stopped" Here is the thing though, he has to be involved in your quit. You need that support system. My wife really could care less if I am quit or not, so I post roll to her, and my kids every day. She may not care but this is for me, so I bring everyone I can into my accountability circle.

Hell the guy at my gym knows I quit and about once every few weeks he will ask me what day I am on. He thinks it's comical I know the day.

Anyway, do whatever you have to do, I sent you my number, use it. I will help you how ever I can, reach out, look around.

Thank you. I am sure that with my attitude (at least the one I have shockingly kept to myself these last nine days) my husband would throw a can of chew at me, and we would get in a big fight. LOL

I am so on edge. How did you overcome it?

It's second by second. I knew if I allowed myself to blow, it would be trigger my wife to want me to start again. Deep breaths, walk outside gut it down if you have to. Or reach out to your group. You will not hurt my feeling if you text or call me just to cuss. I will tell you thank you can I have another round please!

Lord knows I sure did. I have raged, but I did it to another KTC member, or to myself in the mirror. You have to keep up the good fight. Your situation is tough you have another chewer in the house. But I will quit with you today, 24 hours, then we can do it all again tomorrow.

Thank you so much.

[Tuesday]

Oh, I'm not blaming him, I am just explaining why I am not telling him. Also I am showing that I probably am unreasonable while I am quitting.

Yes, he does chew.

A lot of times, people don't want to be shown there can be freedom from nicotine. They want to feel resolved to putting up with using it and "needing" it.

What made you quit?

Today, I am not really sure.

I think that it was hiding it from my kids and wanting to be healthier. I want to gain some weight too, because I think that will make me healthier, and not chewing is a good way to do that. I don't want my girls to catch me chewing.

Oh, I also hate that feeling of not having enough chew left to get through the day.

[kkljinc]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome.  I am so proud of you.  What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today.  That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today.  Step 2 to our program is keeping your word.  Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit.  I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years.  I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes.  Being "quit" is not just a decision.  It is a perpetual state of actions.  We plan to be quit.  We tailor our actions to be quit.  We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard.  There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out.  This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing.  Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here.  We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life.  You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

Terri, my wife actually bought me a can on one of the times I "stopped" Here is the thing though, he has to be involved in your quit. You need that support system. My wife really could care less if I am quit or not, so I post roll to her, and my kids every day. She may not care but this is for me, so I bring everyone I can into my accountability circle.

Hell the guy at my gym knows I quit and about once every few weeks he will ask me what day I am on. He thinks it's comical I know the day.

Anyway, do whatever you have to do, I sent you my number, use it. I will help you how ever I can, reach out, look around.

Thank you. I am sure that with my attitude (at least the one I have shockingly kept to myself these last nine days) my husband would throw a can of chew at me, and we would get in a big fight. LOL

I am so on edge. How did you overcome it?

It's second by second. I knew if I allowed myself to blow, it would be trigger my wife to want me to start again. Deep breaths, walk outside gut it down if you have to. Or reach out to your group. You will not hurt my feeling if you text or call me just to cuss. I will tell you thank you can I have another round please!

Lord knows I sure did. I have raged, but I did it to another KTC member, or to myself in the mirror. You have to keep up the good fight. Your situation is tough you have another chewer in the house. But I will quit with you today, 24 hours, then we can do it all again tomorrow.

[wastepanel]

Oh, I'm not blaming him, I am just explaining why I am not telling him. Also I am showing that I probably am unreasonable while I am quitting.

Yes, he does chew.

A lot of times, people don't want to be shown there can be freedom from nicotine. They want to feel resolved to putting up with using it and "needing" it.

What made you quit?

[Tuesday]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome.  I am so proud of you.  What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today.  That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today.  Step 2 to our program is keeping your word.  Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit.  I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years.  I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes.  Being "quit" is not just a decision.  It is a perpetual state of actions.  We plan to be quit.  We tailor our actions to be quit.  We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard.  There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out.  This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing.  Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here.  We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life.  You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

Terri, my wife actually bought me a can on one of the times I "stopped" Here is the thing though, he has to be involved in your quit. You need that support system. My wife really could care less if I am quit or not, so I post roll to her, and my kids every day. She may not care but this is for me, so I bring everyone I can into my accountability circle.

Hell the guy at my gym knows I quit and about once every few weeks he will ask me what day I am on. He thinks it's comical I know the day.

Anyway, do whatever you have to do, I sent you my number, use it. I will help you how ever I can, reach out, look around.

Thank you. I am sure that with my attitude (at least the one I have shockingly kept to myself these last nine days) my husband would throw a can of chew at me, and we would get in a big fight. LOL

I am so on edge. How did you overcome it?

[kkljinc]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome.  I am so proud of you.  What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today.  That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today.  Step 2 to our program is keeping your word.  Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit.  I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years.  I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes.  Being "quit" is not just a decision.  It is a perpetual state of actions.  We plan to be quit.  We tailor our actions to be quit.  We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard.  There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out.  This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing.  Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here.  We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life.  You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

Terri, my wife actually bought me a can on one of the times I "stopped" Here is the thing though, he has to be involved in your quit. You need that support system. My wife really could care less if I am quit or not, so I post roll to her, and my kids every day. She may not care but this is for me, so I bring everyone I can into my accountability circle.

Hell the guy at my gym knows I quit and about once every few weeks he will ask me what day I am on. He thinks it's comical I know the day.

Anyway, do whatever you have to do, I sent you my number, use it. I will help you how ever I can, reach out, look around.

[Tuesday]

Oh, I'm not blaming him, I am just explaining why I am not telling him. Also I am showing that I probably am unreasonable while I am quitting.

Yes, he does chew.

[wastepanel]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome.  I am so proud of you.  What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today.  That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today.  Step 2 to our program is keeping your word.  Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit.  I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years.  I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes.  Being "quit" is not just a decision.  It is a perpetual state of actions.  We plan to be quit.  We tailor our actions to be quit.  We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard.  There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out.  This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing.  Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here.  We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life.  You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

Oh, you're fine.

Here's the thing Tuesday: You are the only person that can choose whether you are using or not. Unless he's secretly injecting your body with nicotine against your will, you are the only one in control of this.

Does he chew?

[Tuesday]

Okay, sorry for quoting incorrectly. I am new. ;)

[Tuesday]

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.


Thanks Wastepanel,

Well, I have been drinking a lot of water and being very active. (Hence riding bikes with the girls, roller skating, riding my horse, shooting my bow, etc.) I still feel a little foggy and very agitated, and when I am at work sitting down it is extremely hard.

I really don't think that I should tell my hubby. I quit once before (not including that I didn't chew when I was pregnant, because that's an obvious one and was for an important reason), which only lasted eight months. He is not the person going "stay quit," he is the person that says "stop being a bitch and take a chew already" EVERY time I say anything pissy.

Terrilynn

[wastepanel]

Hi,

I am new here and do not really know where to start, or even if I really should be here. I am on day nine and having a hard time not caving today, and I thought that I could use some company (you know that misery loves company right?).

I didn't tell anyone in my life that I quit, because I don't want them to blame everything I say on the fact that I am not chewing. Or, I don't want them to try to talk me into chewing to make them feel better. However, today I am wondering if I am simply being a bitch because I quit chewing. I am seriously debating the worth of quitting.

For example, my little girl's bike broke. She was all upset, and I told her to tell her father because I couldn't fix it. I am not sure that it even can be fixed, but I hoped that he would care. So, he gets home and completely blows her off with maybe he will look at it on a day that he didn't have to work. Now, I know that means never, and I also know that I will be the one buying her a bike if I want her to have one. All I wanted was for him to say, "Oh, I'm sorry honey. Let's go take a look at it." Like that would ever happen. Now I am pissed off at him, but I haven't told him because maybe I'm being irrational because ALL I WANT IS TO TAKE A DAMN CHEW.

Is anyone else in the same boat?

Thanks,
Tuesday

First of all, 9 days is freaking awesome. I am so proud of you. What have you done so far to stay quit?

Secondly, I saw that you have posted roll for today. That means that you promised us and (most importantly) yourself that you won't use nicotine today. Step 2 to our program is keeping your word. Do whatever you need to stay quit.

Third, Don't be afraid to tell people you are quit. I tell everybody, and it's been nearly 2 years. I am proud of myself because I know how hard it is to get through a day sometimes. Being "quit" is not just a decision. It is a perpetual state of actions. We plan to be quit. We tailor our actions to be quit. We will be quit.

Finally, quitting is hard. There are some tricks to help like limiting your caffeine, drinking lots of water, and working out. This helps to get the blood moving, and gets rid of the jitters you are experiencing. Read up on the site, and have some friends to "bitch" at here. We've been where you are, and we know that sometimes all we need is an outlet (not a fight).

Be open to your hubby and everybody else in your life. You can do this.

[kkljinc]

Hi,

I am new here and do not really know where to start, or even if I really should be here. I am on day nine and having a hard time not caving today, and I thought that I could use some company (you know that misery loves company right?).

I didn't tell anyone in my life that I quit, because I don't want them to blame everything I say on the fact that I am not chewing. Or, I don't want them to try to talk me into chewing to make them feel better. However, today I am wondering if I am simply being a bitch because I quit chewing. I am seriously debating the worth of quitting.

For example, my little girl's bike broke. She was all upset, and I told her to tell her father because I couldn't fix it. I am not sure that it even can be fixed, but I hoped that he would care. So, he gets home and completely blows her off with maybe he will look at it on a day that he didn't have to work. Now, I know that means never, and I also know that I will be the one buying her a bike if I want her to have one. All I wanted was for him to say, "Oh, I'm sorry honey. Let's go take a look at it." Like that would ever happen. Now I am pissed off at him, but I haven't told him because maybe I'm being irrational because ALL I WANT IS TO TAKE A DAMN CHEW.

Is anyone else in the same boat?

Thanks,
Tuesday

Tuesday, get into the August group right now and make your promise first and foremost. Give me 24 hours with no Nic, one day at a time. Congrats on your nine day victory, and you have come to the right spot.

At nine days the nic is out of your body your down to the mind games and oral fixation parts.

Remember, Nic did nothing for you, if you had a chew in any of these situations, it would not make them better, it would only push you one day closer to Cancer. Check your inbox, I am sending my information to you now.

Last remember how the first days felt, dont re-live that shit with a cave. Get into roll now, make your promise and secure your quit with your word.

[Tuesday]

Hi,

I am new here and do not really know where to start, or even if I really should be here. I am on day nine and having a hard time not caving today, and I thought that I could use some company (you know that misery loves company right?).

I didn't tell anyone in my life that I quit, because I don't want them to blame everything I say on the fact that I am not chewing. Or, I don't want them to try to talk me into chewing to make them feel better. However, today I am wondering if I am simply being a bitch because I quit chewing. I am seriously debating the worth of quitting.

For example, my little girl's bike broke. She was all upset, and I told her to tell her father because I couldn't fix it. I am not sure that it even can be fixed, but I hoped that he would care. So, he gets home and completely blows her off with maybe he will look at it on a day that he didn't have to work. Now, I know that means never, and I also know that I will be the one buying her a bike if I want her to have one. All I wanted was for him to say, "Oh, I'm sorry honey. Let's go take a look at it." Like that would ever happen. Now I am pissed off at him, but I haven't told him because maybe I'm being irrational because ALL I WANT IS TO TAKE A DAMN CHEW.

Is anyone else in the same boat?

Thanks,
Tuesday