The 7th time is the charm damn it!

[John1]

Thanks for the post. I'll keep up with it. I'm really glad I'm here. I've been reading a lot on the forum and it's amazing how all the experiences are so similar. Anyways. I have to sleep. Two more days to go an then a bunch more until I die peacefully in the future with both of my jaw bones intact.

[mat849]

Found roll call. I'm going to have problems posting that in the morning. I'll try it out though. My mornings start early. I'll try to stick to it. But evenings are better.

I'll do my best to get it in the mornings. Oh wait. I'll use my phone during morning break. Easy. Done. Now I'm going to down a bunch of water and go to bed.

My head feels weird. But my breath is fresh as a daisy's arse.

Post in the morning, first thing. The saying around here is wake up, piss, post roll. I've gotten in the habit of reaching for my phone and posting before I even roll out of bed.

This is very important because your roll post is your promise to everyone here that you will not use nicotine in any form for that day. It is not a status update at the end of the day. After that honor your promise, go to bed, and repeat.

Save the evening check ins for reading everything here and interacting with your quit brothers.

Welcome aboard. Quit like fuck (QLF) with you today!

[John1]

Found roll call. I'm going to have problems posting that in the morning. I'll try it out though. My mornings start early. I'll try to stick to it. But evenings are better.

I'll do my best to get it in the mornings. Oh wait. I'll use my phone during morning break. Easy. Done. Now I'm going to down a bunch of water and go to bed.

My head feels weird. But my breath is fresh as a daisy's arse.

[John1]

-I work long hours outdoors, my check ins will be nightly. It's awesome to have you guys keeping me in check. I do appreciate it. -

Made it! Today went well. No dip. All day urges. Odd Moments of euphoria where I felt really damn good. But mostly thinking about not having a dip in. Biggest trigger was driving home in the car.


Work went well because I was really too busy to think much about my quit. Now that I'm home I just want to go to bed early to fast forward through these three days.

Weird moment today: talking to a work friend, realized he had a huge dip in. I see him every day and never knew he dipped. On the same subject, a few weeks ago a carpenter buddy saw me throw in a dip and remarked that he didn't know that I chewed. I had been chewing around him for nearly 6 months. Maybe the fact that this addiction can be easily hid with smaller pinches and some facial hair makes it that much easier to justify.



Shit! Fuck! 'bang head'

There, had to get it out of my system.

Also, apparently I'm being an ass to my wife, but she's intentionally messing with me because she thinks it's funny. It's irritating, but she's on board. I'm also guessing I'm a hell of a lot more irritating to her right now so I have to keep that in mind.



I thought I joined the march 2015 group when I first joined up. How do I get back there to post roll?


Also, smokey mountain herbal dip is just too close in flavor. It feels too close. I tossed both cans and am sticking with seeds. The herbal stuff is just a few mental excuses from a trip to the gas station.

So my brain is. Going in a bunch of directions. I have lots of things in my head but they're not in any damned order so screw it. I'm going to try to find that roll call thing and get on board.

Tomorrows going to suck worse, I can feel it.

[Idaho Spuds]

John,
Everyday Damn Day. Didn't see you online yet today. We post roll everyday!
Get some phone numbers, text some fellow quitters or let them know that you won't be able to post till X time due to work.
You have to make it work, you have to want to quit and this site will work but you have to use it.
Message me for my number,
Charles

[rdad]

First thing, thanks for your service John!
Now, are you going to post roll with March 15?

[Thumblewort]

Leave the shame at the door, we have all dipped here, and know the pain and disgusting nature of our shared addiction. Instead, focus on being a quitter. The first step is posting roll call here topic/10761232/71/ .

Once you do that we all know you made a promise to be quit today, and we can all move forward shame free.

[Tuco]

Thanks for your fast reply! You're right about that, I can't go on calling those past stoppages "quits." This one will be my first quit, cause this one needs to last until I'm dead.

Thanks again for the support. I'm about 12 hours in and have the clenched jaw going. It may be useful tomorrow at work because I plan to do my best to keep my mouth shut all day so I don't piss anyone off ;)

I'll chime in again tomorrow and let you know how my first day went.

As a side note, I like how sharing all this publicly will provide a certain amount of shame if I feel like breaking. That may help over the next few days.

Great intro. There are lots of former jarheads here, so you're in good company. There is a 100% population of addicts , so you're surrounded as well.

If you've been lurking for a long time then you should know that posting roll is the price of admission around here. Post your word. Keep your word. Do that every day and you will be quit in perpetuity.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Thanks for your fast reply! You're right about that, I can't go on calling those past stoppages "quits." This one will be my first quit, cause this one needs to last until I'm dead.

Thanks again for the support. I'm about 12 hours in and have the clenched jaw going. It may be useful tomorrow at work because I plan to do my best to keep my mouth shut all day so I don't piss anyone off ;)

I'll chime in again tomorrow and let you know how my first day went.

As a side note, I like how sharing all this publicly will provide a certain amount of shame if I feel like breaking. That may help over the next few days.

Hey bro. Go post roll with March 2015. Do it now. That's your quit group and where you make your daily pledge.

[John1]

Thanks for your fast reply! You're right about that, I can't go on calling those past stoppages "quits." This one will be my first quit, cause this one needs to last until I'm dead.

Thanks again for the support. I'm about 12 hours in and have the clenched jaw going. It may be useful tomorrow at work because I plan to do my best to keep my mouth shut all day so I don't piss anyone off ;)

I'll chime in again tomorrow and let you know how my first day went.

As a side note, I like how sharing all this publicly will provide a certain amount of shame if I feel like breaking. That may help over the next few days.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Welcome John.

You never quit before, you merely stopped. This is a hardcore addiction. But not to worry KTC is the right place to be for we have te secret recipe to successful quit. It starts with ODAAT. One day at a time. Win today. Stay quit today. When you wake up tomorrow, commit to win that day when it arrives. But worry about today. Don't worry about tomorrow. Stay focused on the now, on today. Victory will be yours. Stay with us and be quit.

Welcome and congratulations.

[John1]

My name is John. I'm 32. I've been dropping in on this site to lurk for close to 2 years.

I have a wife and two kids old enough to know that my dipping is gross. I tell them it's bear poop. I dipped grizzly wintergreen so they saw the bear on the lid,believed me,and stayed far away from it. I'm not quitting for my kids or wife, I've tried that before. This time I'm quitting for myself. I smoked for 6 years starting at age 16. I began smoking as a reason to skip lunch with my first serious girlfriend 'do it' . She lasted 6 months, but my addiction to nicotine has lasted 16 years now. I began dipping at 20 years old in the Marine Corps. Dropped smoking at 22 because, as we all know, smoking with a dip in makes the dip taste gross. 'Crazy'

The reason I'm quitting is because it's the dumbest thing I could have ever gotten myself into. How many thousands of dollars have I paid for a product that'll eventually disfigure or kill me?

My teeth are somehow in good shape still, as are my gums, but I've been upper decking for two years now. Even though I very rarely throw one in the bottom lip, the whole area is sore when I try. The left and right pockets are spent. I haven't been able to throw one in the middle for nearly a decade. So what happens when I run out of space in my upper lip? I feel like a needle addict who has to shoot up between their toes because they've collapsed all their good veins elsewhere.

This shit is rediculous, and today I threw out my last can. I bought a load of sunflower seeds and some wintergreen smokey mountain herbal stuff. In the last month I've drawn down from 1.5 cans a day to about a can every three days. That in itself has been a big victory for me. Tomorrow it'll be my first day of cold turkey from sun up to sun down.

I've quit several times before. Once I stayed quit for 8 months. Another time I went almost two years. Both times ended during a deployment in either Iraq and Afghanistan with just the tiniest of pinches. "Oh yeah, let me just take a tiny bit and take a stroll down good old memory lane" BOOM! Addicted again....

So I'm quitting. If I make it to 33 with a spitter in hand that means I'll have passed the halfway mark and will have spent the majority of my life as a nicotine fiend. I'm also out of the Marines after 10 years, and work in commercial construction. Things are going well for me, and I don't need to be known for being the guy who needs to stop working for a minute in order to find a place to spit in what will soon be a cancer ward for a large university hospital!


So, thanks for reading. I'm not looking forward to the fog. I hate the fog. What I'm looking forward to is the great sleep I'll get after the first week. I know some folks have trouble sleeping after they quit, but the times I've done it before had me experiencing the best sleep and easiest wake ups of my adult life. That's what I'm looking forward to. Quitting sucks, but it's really just 72 hours of suck and then mind games right? 'arse'

I'm glad to be here. I've failed at quits so many times I think this community may be what I need to keep myself reminded of why I wanted to quit in the first place.

Well shit, here it goes. 'help'