Welcome. Why do you want to quit? What will be different this time? What will you do when you just cant take it anymore? What do you have to live for? What is your plan?
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I want to quit b/c it seems that it is always on my mind. I am always making sure that I have it with me. If I'm in a long meeting, I am counting the seconds until I get out so I can put in a dip. Everything around me is controlled by the urge to feed the addiction.
I feel this time is different b/c after researching addiction, I can fully say that I am addicted. I'm sure that sounds crazy after 18 years of it, but I guess I never really accepted it.
What to do when I just can't take it and what is the plan. My family is aware of my intentions so I have some support there. The plan is to stay busy over the next couple weeks. I have put more structure to my day and will be devoting more time to exercise in the morning, which was when I had the biggest cravings. From a work standpoint, I can only chew what I bring in, so the trick here is not going into a gas station/C-store. Just buy gas at the pump. I have also put a sticky on the inside of my wallet that says "quit".
With a wife, daughter, son, family, friends, and a golf game that is in dire need of help....there is a lot to live for.