Thanks everybody.
I would ask for a little help here. I've gone and made myself all accountable to a bunch of you alls, but now I can't remember who all I've made myself accountable to. I decided to keep the links to all the places I have to update in my signature so I can click on them easily.
Please, if you've invited me to post in your quit group for my accountability, and you don't see that I've put it in my signature, first understand it ain't personal, I just don't remember, and second, give me a little reminder so I can add it into my signature.
Thanks to all.
May 11
Yep, I remember you inviting, but I forgot you in my signature... not sure if I posted there today yet, so I'll check on that.
Thanks!
Snapper...it is good to see you work the system. Just make sure you understand what you've done. Accountability is what you seek...accountability is what you've built. You've done it with some of the titans of this site. A lot of people are investing their time and energy in YOUR quit. Please don't take that investment for granted. And don't squander the opportunity with another spelunking expedition. You do and you will be shunned Amish style. We may even send our own KTC mafia contingent to drive home our disappointment.
Never again, for any reason.
No caving for me... it isn't even an option.
And just how can you be so sure? How do you know you've closed the door?
Because it's a mindset. I QLF EDD. I post my committment in 6 different threads (exposing my name and word to hundreds of people) EDD. I'm nothing if I'm not vain, I don't like to look bad, and I've put myself in a position that I'll look really bad if I cave.
When I set my mind to something, I do it. In the past, I've never truly set my mind to my quit effort, it was always the stupid, "oh, I can handle this and quit whenever I want." I know that's bullshit now, which is why I'm here, which is why I came here even after I had managed to quit and stay quit for the first 8 days. I knew that it was only a matter of time that "nobody will ever know" would rear its ugly head and so I desperately searched for a group to help me stay true to my word.
This time, it IS different, and those aren't just words.. Those are honest to god actions, me being on this site, me giving my number to literally a dozen random people to text and call me and for me text and call them. These are not the normal actions of Sapper, trust me. I'm making committed, purposeful changes in my behavior, so it is in fact different this time.
I'm glad I found this site when I did, because had I not, I'd have caved by now, I know it. Now, I can't cave, because well, I just can't face all these people and say, I gave up on myself even when you didn't.
But, all I can offer you Loot is my word, and that word 2 weeks ago meant shit, because that word was dripping in dip spit, but the word I offer you now, the one that I have always held as sacred, is clean, with fresh minty toothpaste and no nicotine anywhere in it, because that has not been a part of my life now for the last 15 days and by god it never will be again.